But circumstances have changed. I should be in an apartment somewhere I suppose. But to be honest I NEED THE EXPERIENCE! I know it sounds a bit weird but it's true. I need to share experiences for what I am about to do with DotsHQ. And if you want experience, I mean REAL LIFE EXPERIENCE then you need to get down here with me. Ooooohhhh, soooo much has happened. I have got to know a lot of the homeless, the good and the bad. The beggars and the beautiful. The addicted and the volunteers. The tragedy. The devastation. The heartbreak. See, in the homeless world there is a lot more bad than good. It makes you toughen up. Some days can be, weeelll, pretty sad. Sometimes bad news comes in twos and threes. Sometimes????
Weeeell, pretty often.
Big Bob was at the library a few weeks ago sitting on the computer next to me. Bob was in a car accident many years ago and was badly injured, badly disfigured. We used to have lunch together often. At the library Bob fell off his chair. He was a BIIIIG boy and the girls couldn't get him up so I helped. Bob just smiled and said he lost his balance. I knew something was wrong.
Bob died last Sunday.
I found out at Rosies along with the death of another homeless lady I knew well. That was a bad day. But not the worst. The ones I hate are the suicides and overdoses of people you have a lot of time for. The ones that have been hit with a big bang for whatever reason. The ones like me and you! But I have learned a little while I've been down here. Well, no. I've learned a LOT.
I've learned to SMILE a lot more. I have to. People like Bob are watching. I have to smile for them. PLUS
I NEED THE EXPERIENCE..........