"I stand here oh tormented soul
a shadow of my former self
I cower beneath the essence of past
No answers, only excuses, won't last
Say what I hear, it pleads
An airway to concede
Why are you doing that, why do you relent
A vicious circle of contempt
The runaway, the exempt
And so I look a life so wasted
So pitiful so worn
A passage through the storm
We call life
A dream a need a love
I keep telling people about my Journey. As you know my Journey is being traveled Backwards by STEPS forward. That's cooool. I want you all to understand what I am doing. Nobody else is explaining it the way that I am. But no matter how much I explain the "dots" and how I am working to "connect the dots" through DotsHQ, there is still the inquisition. The dots want to know about me. Particularly the MEDIA. What happened? Where do you come from? How much money did you lose? WHY did it happen? And the other stuff......
In my book I explained that the PAST does not matter and I gave it the respect it deserved and gave it a page and a half of 'nothing'. It was a half page too much. The PAST deserves nothing in our life forwards. We can over complicate it. The PAST cannot be controlled. It simply has already happened. Gone. Vamoosh. I suppose it would be nice if we could go back in time and re-do what we did before. But life is not like that. You live it forward. Then you EXPERIENCE it. Then it is PAST. You can have various emotions from the experiences. Happy, glad, regret, joy, pain and the list goes on......
But understand I do not care who or what you are. The PAST cannot be changed. It cannot be controlled.
Now that's a different STORY.
Today is a great day for me. I will REMEMBER it going forward. Today is 123. The first of the second 2013. Simple. It is the day I will refer to in my future as the day people can get answers to my past. I think it's boring. But it's not up to me. If I tell my story some dots want to know about my PAST. That's cooool.
So this is it. A very SIMPLE brief of my PAST. Maybe it gives y'all a buzz. I dunno.
I was born into a very Catholic family. The last of eight children. My mum was Ruby Mary Kathleen Kelly. Naturally descendant of Ireland. She married my dad Norman Ernest Lauritz. Thus the name. They died when I was young. I wish I had them but I haven't. IT happens......
Anyway we were a pretty poor family. I had to be a choir boy to pay for my schooling (scholarship). I made it. When my mum died I got into Local Government Administration. I studied at RMIT in Melbourne and got my piece of paper after a few years. I'm sure that's of vital importance in the grand scheme of things. Yep, I've got a brain and ended up qualified. I got up to Assistant Town Clerk and then had enough of Government. I was frustrated. I was not allowed to think. I got out. I ended up at BP (British Petroleum). They let me THINK for a living. I loved it. I got retrenched when things went bad with the economy thingies. I got married. Couldn't get a job. Left Melbourne and went to the Gold Coast, where I still am. Tried to get back into the Oil Industry. Couldn't so chose another career. Finance. Became a Finance Broker, then a Bank Manager. Then a Financial Planner with the biggest Funds Manager. I got divorced. Then I gambled on a business or two. I lost. IT happens.
My PAST is PAST just like yours. You can get experience from your PAST. You can LEARN about stuff so you can move forward.
I am a dot.
You are a dot.
There are 7 billion of us. All the same. Born the same. Die the same. Some will be remembered in a few centuries. Most won't.
So that's my PAST. Pretty boring really. My future? Now that's exciting because I am going to connect the dots. And that will be sooooo coooool.....
And the whole point to this craaazzzeee BLOG thingie is that I am YOU.
And today is a really important day for ME.
Because from now on, if anybody asks me about my PAST I'm going to say
"Go to BLOG thingie on 123......
Now let's move forward.......
I am a dot. I'm connecting............