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The Last PAST Blast

1/31/2013

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"I stand here oh tormented soul
a shadow of my former self
I cower beneath the essence of past
No answers, only excuses, won't last

Say what I hear, it pleads
An airway to concede
Why are you doing that, why do you relent
A vicious circle of contempt
The runaway, the exempt

And so I look a life so wasted
So pitiful so worn
A passage through the storm
We call life 
A dream a need a love 
One born"

                    Trigger, Hmmmm........                    
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....long way home....Hmmmm....Where's home?...
Today is a day to remember. Not the day itself but what happens today. WHY? Because today is 1st February 2013 0r 1/2/2013 or to make it easier to remember 1/2/3. MmmmHmmm.....
           123
I keep telling people about my Journey. As you know my Journey is being traveled Backwards by STEPS forward. That's cooool. I want you all to understand what I am doing. Nobody else is explaining it the way that I am. But no matter how much I explain the "dots" and how I am working to "connect the dots" through DotsHQ,  there is still the inquisition. The dots want to know about me. Particularly the MEDIA. What happened? Where do you come from? How much money did you lose? WHY did it happen? And the other stuff......
In my book I explained that the PAST does not matter and I gave it the respect it deserved and gave it a page and a half of 'nothing'. It was a half page too much. The PAST deserves nothing in our life forwards. We can over complicate it. The PAST cannot be controlled. It simply has already happened. Gone. Vamoosh. I suppose it would be nice if we could go back in time and re-do what we did before. But life is not like that. You live it forward. Then you EXPERIENCE it. Then it is PAST. You can have various emotions from the experiences. Happy, glad, regret, joy, pain and the list goes on......
But understand I do not care who or what you are. The PAST cannot be changed. It cannot be controlled.
 Your future.?
Now that's a different STORY.

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..1..2..3......juuuump?....Nup...uh uh....
I have finished my PAST and yet dots still want to know about me. Why am I talking like I do? What happened to make me this way? Do I deserve what I have got? Did I do bad things? Am I trying to escape? Hmmmmm........
Today is a great day for me. I will REMEMBER it going forward. Today is 123. The first of the second 2013. Simple. It is the day I will refer to in my future as the day people can get answers to my past. I think it's boring. But it's not up to me. If I tell my story some dots want to know about my PAST. That's cooool. 
So this is it. A very SIMPLE brief of my PAST. Maybe it gives y'all a buzz. I dunno.
I was born into a very Catholic family. The last of eight children. My mum was Ruby Mary Kathleen Kelly. Naturally descendant of Ireland. She married my dad Norman Ernest Lauritz. Thus the name. They died when I was young. I wish I had them but I haven't. IT happens......
Anyway we were a pretty poor family. I had to be a choir boy to pay for my schooling (scholarship). I made it. When my mum died I got into Local Government Administration. I studied at RMIT in Melbourne and got my piece of paper after a few years. I'm sure that's of vital importance in the grand scheme of things. Yep, I've got a brain and ended up qualified. I got up to Assistant Town Clerk and then had enough of Government. I was frustrated. I was not allowed to think. I got out. I ended up at BP (British Petroleum). They let me THINK for a living. I loved it. I got retrenched when things went bad with the economy thingies. I got married. Couldn't get a job. Left Melbourne and went to the Gold Coast, where I still am. Tried to get back into the Oil Industry. Couldn't so chose another career. Finance. Became a Finance Broker, then a Bank Manager. Then a Financial Planner with the biggest Funds Manager. I got divorced. Then I gambled on a business or two. I lost. IT happens.

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Then my life changed. I hit rock bottom. I found Mister SomeOne Out-There which is ME. I decided to do what I WANT to do with the rest of my life. And so that's ME. There's a whole lotta other stuff but it simply doesn't matter. I live in a tent. That's ME now. I am writing books and poems and soon I will be singing in a band with songs that mean something to me. When I die I will be in the same place as you when you die. The same place as Barrack Obama, Mother Theresa, Steve Jobs and Tiger Woods........
My PAST is PAST just like yours. You can get experience from your PAST. You can LEARN about stuff so you can move forward.
I am a dot.
You are a dot.
There are 7 billion of us. All the same. Born the same. Die the same. Some will be remembered in a few centuries. Most won't.
So that's my PAST. Pretty boring really. My future? Now that's exciting because I am going to connect the dots. And that will be sooooo coooool.....
And the whole point to this craaazzzeee BLOG thingie is that I am YOU.
Yep.
And today is a really important day for ME.
Because from now on, if anybody asks me about my PAST I'm going to say
 "Go to BLOG thingie on 123......
Now let's move forward.......
I am a dot. I'm connecting............

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TORNADO.....Oh Oh.....

1/28/2013

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"Why do we stand in awe of the power and immensity of the sea, the vast unknown reaches of the Universe, the beauty of the flower, the splendor of the sunset...... and at the same time downgrade ourselves? Did not the same Creator make us? Are we not the most marvelous creation of all, with power to think, experience and change our environment.... and love?

                                                -       Denis Waitley, Author "Seeds Of Greatness"
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Laughing in the face of adversity.....
Last time I BLOG thingied I told you that a storm was brewing while I went to church on Sunday. Well, little did I know but it was the beginning of the remnants of a Tornado called Oswald which had caused a lot of damage and heartbreak on the Eastern Coast of Australia. I had heard a little about it coming down from up north but just thought it would fizzle out. Uh uh. Nope. It waited for me to get in my last rites at Sunday mass before giving me a BIIIIIG surprise when I got "home" to La Chateau Tento. This was a welcoming party like no other. My little Tento has been featured on National television. Only about 100 metres from the beach but nicely nestled into the rich green vegetation of the local sand dunes. Tento is only pretty small but I have learned from past experiences to buy 'army' type tents to handle the surprises that the elements are known to serve up. Elements like rats chewing through the walls of the tent looking for food leaving nice big holes for some of the most venomous snakes in Australia to have a clear passage in to snuggle up with me. Elements like flooding waters. Elements like sand storms. Elements like evil people with addiction problems 'raiding' the tent and stealing your supplies and damaging whatever they possibly can. Elements like a blazing sun trying to set fire to you, not just the tent. Oh yeah. The elements. Bring it on. Nothing to a seasoned bush hobo like Trigger. The man who is now hardened. The man without ego, without fear. The man who laughs in the face of danger. The man whose spiritual journey has prepared him for the very worst that life can throw at him. Trigger, the man with God on his side. The man who will let nothing get through his impenetrable armor of self-belief and trust.............. until now... (squeak.....) 

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..you there....anyone...hello, anyone
Let me paint a picture for you. Give you a bit of practice in creating a vision, huh? La Chateau is a three man army tent ( well sorta maybe kinda) on the top of a sand dune hill. Over time I have 'manoevered' the rich green vegetation so that it has grown around, over and even under the tent so that I am nicely camouflaged from prying eyes. On both sides of me I have tracks leading down to the beach. About 20 metres behind me there is a 'jogging' track for the public. But that's OK because I am quiet and clean and all that I do is read..... and sleep, read..... and sleep! To make thingies a little more comfortable I have tarpaulins strategically placed over and in front of the tent (army green of course). So I have had lots of 'moments' but they have given me EXPERIENCES. They have taught me lessons in life. But NOTHING could prepare me for this..........

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When I 'checked in' just after lunch the winds were stronger than in the morning before I left so I 'battened down the hatches'. The wind was bringing with it the sand from the beach and it was just beginning to rain....big time. So I got into La Chateau and IT started.........
The winds picked up intensity. The rain mixed with sand was hitting me but I was protected. Oooooh what a good book. What storm, I smiled. IT got angry. Very ANGRY. It was pummeling down during the afternoon and there was a lot of noise outside. I wanted to get some hot water for a cuppa but...... uh uh. No way (squeak). As night closed in I realized that I needed batteries for my torch. No light to read. Oh shoot!
So I lay there in the dark ALL NIGHT listening to the tornado try to eat me up. Water was getting in through the rat holes and wet sand was covering the tent completely but the intensity of the tornado had gone to a new level. I was uncomfortable but all was cooool, but wet. A few prayers to try to get some sleep. But this was a MONSTER. This was the NEGOB of all NEGOBS. If it was trying to scare me it was gaining credibility. 
Then SMAAAAASH. This was when I began to poop in my (very wet) panties. The overhead tarpaulin had been ripped from its foundations and, complete with wet sand, was smashing into the tent.  Oh oh. Trouble. I had to go outside and secure it or pull the whole thing down.
A couple of Hail Marys and out into the unknown I went. The wind was pushing the tarp so hard into the front of the tent that at first I couldn't even unzip the front door thingie. I pushed outside. Aaarrggmm, that was something I will NEVER forget. The first hurt was the wet sand hitting every part of me with the aid of the 100 kph+ cyclonic winds. Then seemingly every single plant between me and the beach hit me all at once. Being insane of course I laughed and screamed at the motherfuder that I wasn't ready to go yet. I had a story to tell. Huh. Cop that...........
It hit me with the second tarp. It was wrapped completely around me while I secured the first tarp overhead. I would have loved a polaroid snap of me at the time. it would have been hilarious! Anyway after about I suppose an hour or so I finally got back into the tent after scraping off layers and layers of sand and wiped myself down with a wet towel. Then I waited. I was pretty sure that a flying 'missile', a tree or some other body was going to get me. And so I prayed, as I do, not in fear of my life but because if I was to be taken I had to BE with God. THAT was how bad it was. It continued on like that all night and into the next day. When I ventured out the storms were still severe. I tried to do a little filming on my phone but it was difficult. I finally got some hot water for a cuppa and went back and weathered the storm so to speak.
This morning I saw the destruction. It was like the desert. Wet sand had just covered the entire vegetation. Trees were down everywhere. La Chateau was just covered in sand. The tarps were down and there was not one green leaf or fern around me. All that stood out was the La Chateau Sand Sculpture. I could have easily "gone" and was stupid to be there. But I always believed that it was not my choice as to whether I stayed or left. I stayed. And now, by Working Backwards, I have another great EXPERIENCE for my..........

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THE DEEP

1/26/2013

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"Your future defines who you are. Your past provides the experiences to define your future.You are a freeze frame of your future past."
"In your early years you do not have the experiences to define your future. In your later years you have a limited future to create the experiences which will complete your existence, the definition of who you are"
"I was born
And I will die
In between
Is the reason why"

                                        -    Trigger going insane!
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....she's on a Journey too.....
I thought for a change I would provide the wisdom in the quotes rather than repeating everybody else who has ever 'thought' for a living. Simple fact is that as I continue along my journey the knowledge and wisdom accumulation is crankin' up. Big time. Knowledge is increasing due to my incessant reading and hunger for as much information as I can absorb, particularly in relation to WHAT it is that makes me tick, and WHY. Wisdom is the personal asset that I am gaining in abundance, and I am proud of what I have so far achieved in this area. See, wisdom is attributed to experience, or more particularly, life's experiences. And for that I can thank my financial demise, my homelessness and my desperation to find myself, which of course I did through a fella I call Mister SomeOne Out-There. As you are aware MSOT is ME. Not the ME I used to BE but the ME I want to BE! Because of my demise I became reclusive, I lived in a tent and still do. When I first became homeless I lived on the street. I slept in rubbish bins and in gardens, and then upgraded myself to the beach. Then upgraded again to La Chateau Tento. THAT experience is one of the greatest experiences I have in my PAST because the tent became my THINK tank, my ashram, my place of creative visualisation, my residence of reverie. I didn't know what I was doing until I read about it! Then I knew. I was building the rest of my life, my future was going to be lived in accordance with Mister SomeOne Out-There's rules. My inner self rules.

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THINK
When I first began my new life, soup kitchens stopped me from dying of starvation. Now soup kitchens provide wisdom. They show me what I need to do to help the 'discarded' dots of our society. To understand you have to BECOME one of them. You have to walk the walk. You have to earn your stripes. You have to become credible. Now I am. Thankyou God for giving me the OPPORTUNITY. Now I KNOW. Before I had no idea. Just like most other dots.
This morning I woke up to full scale cyclonic conditions. I literally had to force my way out of the tent because of the winds and rain. But I had to go to Church. When I got there everyone was laughing because I was drenched. I laughed too. See, I don't even think about stuff like a little discomfort any more. It doesn't matter to me. It is trivial data in relation to where I am heading. I have lost the EGO and with that I found a reason for my existence and that is all that matters to me. I remind myself every day that I am dying, as we all are. I don't know when, but soon. I have to make each day count. I have to finish off the Journey I am on so my life is given meaning. So.....

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...I'm on my way... to DotsHQ...aha, aha.....
.....as I have said many times. MSOT has given me these gifts that I didn't know I had. Now I can SEE where I am going because I have opened my eyes and seen MYSELF, so now I can STEP forward with confidence, with the "GIFTS" I have been given. I can now complete my Journey which I am living backwards.
The books have given me the knowledge. The soup kitchens and survival experiences have given me the wisdom to go where it was impossible for me to go before because I wasn't ME! Now I am and the Journey is well underway as you know. The best places on the itinerary are still to come. So sit tight and WATCH. I am working on the YouTube videos which will create the exposure I need to get to DotsHQ, OUR new home. There I may find what I am chasing. There I may find my final destination on my Journey. There I may find HAPPY-ME...........

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MIRROR....RORRIM

1/25/2013

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"Dreams are life's way of showing what our destiny is"

"Sometimes, for whatever reason, DESTINY sees fit to rip our dreams away and we don't get a say"

"It's about forgetting that problems and setbacks are a part of our destiny. It's about remembering how precious dreams are"      

                                        -    Melody Beattie, Author 'The Grief Club'
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....Free feed time. Hmmmm.....deja vu...
After writing BLOG thingie yesterday I decided I needed a dose of "The Grief Club" as I hadn't read Melody for quite a while. So I checked her out at the Library and read her in La Chateau last night. I'm glad I did. She is very therapeutic for me and as I STEP further along my journey I always pick something up from her writing. Such was the case last night.
See, Melody has had a lot happen to her in her lifetime. From being a chronic drug addict, alcoholic when she was young to giving up a child when she had no hope of raising him during her addictions. Then marriage and divorce. Then the worst one, losing her gorgeous son Shane in a skiing accident when he was only 12. Having a chronic back pain all her life until taking on a radical new operation overseas and then finally finding out after being sober for over 20 years that she had tested positive to Hepatitis from sharing needles when she was a drug addict.
So you see, I was looking for a 'mentor' after my downfall and Melody made me feel better. WHY?
Because she walked the walk and talked the talk. Melody was ME!

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Some things just don't change......
Reading her still helps me. It keeps me on course. It keeps me sane! Like this extract from her book page 146:
She talks about the 'food shelves' and lining up for a free feed. One night she had been to the food shelves and left empty handed. She was tired of the struggle. She got into her car and cried....and prayed.....
"Soon you'll never have to worry about money again - unless you want to.
I heard that as clearly as if someone said it in my car. Simultaneously a peace filled the car, a peace so big that my exhaustion disappeared. It wasn't a feeling that sometime in the future things would be OK. Everything was OK now. I drove home, I didn't win the lottery. Something better happened. My self-worth disconnected from my net-worth. I stopped struggling and stepped into peace"
Sometime later Melody celebrated a million dollars in the bank after her book became a best seller.
It's why I read and study. It's why I have taken up philosophy and studied Eastern culture and history. It's why I BELIEVE. Because I am a dot and other dots like Melody Beattie, and Dr Victor Frankl, and Scott F Peck, and millions of other dots are there in books to show me the way 'home'. They are also with me on my Journey, and for that they get my LOVE, which other dots are also showing me how to do.

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....peek-a-boo, I see you....
Writers and doctors, philosophers and theologians, psychologists and psychiatrists. They are all dots, just like me. They have something to give me. More valuable than money. More valuable than anything materialistic in their lives. They give me their EXPERIENCES. They share their EXPERIENCES. They share their PAST. They share their LIVES. They help me understand ME! They show me the LIGHT that they all found amongst the darkness.
They let me look in the MIRROR and see THEIR reflection.
And so what do I get out of all of this?

            I GET TO TURN THE MIRROR AROUND.........to YOU.........

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IT Happens.....

1/24/2013

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"If you ask Maggie what she learned from her years of homelessness, the first thing she'll tell you is that EVERY DIRTY STINKING LITTLE THING THAT HAPPENS TO YOU, HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Just because God is with us doesn't mean we'll be saved from painful experiences. But the experience has something to teach us. it's our job to figure out what the lesson is"

                               Melody Beattie, Author THE GRIEF CLUB, page 97

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......Versace Tentace.......
If you have been following BLOG thingie for a while you will have noticed that I have referred to Melody Beattie before. Melody is best known for her book "Co-Dependant No More" which I haven't read. But her book the GRIEF CLUB is up there with my favorite books. Not because it is a literary masterpiece but because Melody has been through a lot in her life and has benefited the world by being able to put her feelings, her emotions, into words. I think I have said before she WRITES WITH SOUL. I would recommend this book to everyone, even if you have been blessed in life...... so far! When I really needed help her book came to my rescue. It's when I was down and out. Self pity was running rampant and I was looking for a suffering 'partner', a mentor, so to speak.
It's funny how I found the book, or more specifically, how the book found me. It was at the library but it wasn't in the normal "I feel sorry for myself" section of Self Help and Personal Development. In fact I found it on the floor. I picked it up to find out where I should put it back and read one paragraph, then opened the book contents to find the Chapter on Maggie. I was meant to read it. Since then I have read the book probably a dozen times. It makes me understand myself a little better because it's about, aaarrgghhmm, well sorta, hmmm..... about ME.The whole book is worth reading but the Chapter on Maggie is like reading "The Mirror", an image of  ME! Maggie had a good business of her own but made a mistake. She got married. All was OK until her husband lost his job. Then life turned sour for a long time. She ended up living in a tent and she really didn't do anything wrong herself. But the Gods were against her, for whatever reason.

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YOU could live in there.....
Homelessness isn't something you learn in school, or in a book. It's something you have to EXPERIENCE.
YOU BECOME IT. Then when you realise where you are, your new friends and acquaintances, you do what you need to learn to try and get back out into 'normal' society. Another extract (page 92) from the book....................
"There's an underground culture even in wealthy cities. In another time they might be called nomads. Now they're homeless people who live on the street. Some are ordinary people like Maggie. A series of bad breaks bumps them out of normal life and pushes them into the gap. Some of the people are dangerous, insane. Some are alcoholics, addicts. It's a microcosm of society. it's our little world.Most people don't 'SEE' the people living in the gap. They're almost invisible. It bothers some people to see homeless people. It annoys them. Maggie barely noticed until she became one herself".

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Bad stories often turn into good stories. Maggie finally got out.....alive. She now has her own joint and when she gets the chance throws 'supplies' down to the homeless anonymously. Because she was one of them she learned that it is our job in life to help our brothers and sisters. Sometimes the lesson can be hard.
In my book I talked about "Degrees Of Devastation". Like many people I have suffered other things like heartbreak, family loss and 'stuff'. But each bit of pain, each piece of grief, each slice of sorrow, is for a reason. Those reasons help us learn. They help us understand ourselves more. They make us appreciate how precious...... and short...... life is. When you EXPERIENCE the bad stuff that life serves up, it makes us empathise with those who have suffered fate much worse than our own. All of these experiences we must learn to SHARE, to help others. It is why I have designed DotsHQ. So that I can pass on my experiences to help others in trouble. We all need to think a lot more about our lives and the lives of others. It's where that stuff called LOVE comes in. We also need to keep in mind "MEMENTO MORI". Life is short and.....

                                                            ..IT Happens........

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MUSIC POWER

1/24/2013

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"The moment you have in your heart
this extraordinary thing called love
and feel the depth, the delight
the ecstasy of it, you will discover
that for you the world is transformed"

                                                         -     J. Krishnamuri
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..... Heartbreak Hotel......... dada dada.....
I remember (tragically) the power of love. Or should I say the power of losing love. Many years ago I lost somebody I loved deeply. My fault of course but it was too late to fix up. I'll never ever forget the heartbreak and associated pain I went through for a very long time afterwards. In fact it happened to me twice. Heartbreak, well severe heartbreak, leaves scars. Time eventually eases the pain but your heart is scarred if it was deep love, or so I believe anyway. The scars remain for the rest of your life. Just a little reminder to you every now and then how bad the hurt was. I'm one of those people (unfortunately) that keeps deep personal things bottled up inside me with my loneliness. I don't talk to anyone about the hurt. It's my hurt. It's my scar. So I keep it inside of me for eternity. I know it's not good for me. But .......... c'est la vie.........
But there was one thing that I remember vividly about the aftermath of lost love and heartbreak. We all do it. And that is love songs. Music. The songs you play and listen to ten billion times and even more if you drink in your self sympathy, your greatest companion. When things were going along swimmingly they were NICE songs. In your drunken pathetic state of self pity you replay the songs so many times that you even make the song feel sorry for you.  Songs like REM's "Everybody Hurts" and Sinhead O'Connor's "Nothing Compares To You". I mean, seriously, give me a break. If I hear them one more time I'll.... I'll.... I'll.... do something, cry hysterically probably! Oh those weeeere the daaaays my friends, weee thought they'd never end......
..........Heee Heee Heee........

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.......cute background for nice words....
But what is it about the power of music? I mean songs are words wrapped up in a bit of nice sounding noise, right? As you know I just luuuurve good verse, a nice poem. Something that hits the emotional dark side of my very being. Something that matters to my inner heart thingie. I've even started to write poetry about my life and some of the pathetic self inflicted consequences of a life soooo badly lived soooo far (are you crying yet dot?). It sorta helps me to "Let Go". In fact I wrote a poem called that and put it in my book. Anyway some people like what I write and send me a nice complimentary email every now and then....... BUT........
Add some good music to those very same words and if the words are good enough then all of a sudden instead of a few hundred or a few thousand reading your work, those words become a "HIT" and all of a sudden MILLIONS of people are LISTENING to your work. WHY, may I ask?
The answer is pretty obvious. The MUSIC plays with the emotional strings of your, and everyone else's, heart.
John Lennon's Imagine and Paul McCartney's "Let It Be" are two songs not only classics, but are known throughout the world even nearly fifty years after they were recorded. WHY? Good music. BRILLIANT words/lyrics. But if those two genii had not have put the words to music, would the words be known? No way in the world.

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...the answer is blowin' in the wind...
So, write a good first book and market it very successfully and you MAY get a few readers?? Write a brilliant poem or piece of verse and you will still only get a niche market.
But write some good words/lyrics and attach them to a good beat, rhythm and blues and headbangin' rock and all of a sudden you will have the WORLD's attention.  A MASS market. So the beat, the Music, will be the greatest marketer of your words because the ENTIRE WORLD LOVES MUSIC. Once they hear the beat they'll learn the words. The legend begins. Hmmmmmm..........
Then.....
ADD a good story to the writer of the lyrics, and guess what you come up with?
                                             ...........MASS EXPOSURE.......... +
                       DotsHQ

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MAKING A GIANT

1/22/2013

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"Life can only be understood backwards but it mus be lived forward"
                                                  -       Soren Kierkegaard, Danish Philosopher 1813-1855
"I like the dreams for the future better than the history of the past"
                                                   -      Thomas Jefferson
"A dream is only a dream until it becomes real. So make it real"
                                                   -      TriggerDot (heee heee heee!)
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.....maaaan, you got a big head......
It's fuuunnee how people read stuff about other people or read stories which they find amazing but never think that they have the capability of doing something amazing themselves. They read a biography and go "Oh WOW" and then they tell their friends and family about some of the amazing stuff that the GIANT did. And then the family and friends all go "Oh WOW" as well. Heee Heee Heee, it's fuunnee. 
Why don't we all read about what those GIANTS did and learn from them. In other words THINK about how you could apply some of the stuff you learned from the biography to your own situation. To your own LIFE. 
So you have gained some knowledge from the "WOW" book. Maybe even some wisdom. You have just studied a little philosophy. That's what philosophy is, the study of knowledge and wisdom. So why go tell everyone else about it. Why not USE it yourself. The GIANT you just read about could be YOU. All that you have to do is to "STAND ON THE SHOULDERS OF GIANTS". You like to watch the GIANTS. You love to hear about the great things that they did. You even DREAM about what it would be like to do the things the GIANTS did. Ooooh how nice (with dreamy smile!) it would be to be Richard Gere or Julia Roberts in 'Pretty Woman'. Aaaaahhhh, hmmmmm, heaven...........
                                                           BAAAAAANG
Aaaaaagghh, what was that?
                       That was REALITY. Now back to work in the job you hate!

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...even have a GIANT Angel.....
I read a book a long time ago called "Google Speak" by author Janet Lowe. When asked what characteristics people like Bill Gates, Warren Buffet (Berkshire Hathaway), Jack Welch (GE), Ted Turner (CNN) and Oprah Winfrey, have in common, this was the response:
"Foremost they trust themselves and follow their own ideas. They have intuition but more important they listen to their inner voice. Intuition is not a supernatural phenomenon. It is a combination of your total knowledge, your experience, your thinking and feeling self and your present mindset. It can be your automatic pilot".
Hmmmmmm...........
There's a bit more about the traits of those that can change the world.... 
"They engage their IMAGINATION. They think of what may be possible. THEY THINK BIG. Imagination is a gift but it can also be cultivated. They are BOLD. They don't hesitate when they know they are right. A strong positive attitude carries them forward, far forward".
Hmmmmmm............

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......will I? .....Nuuuuh.... BAAAANG.....
I am a dot. I don't want to hear the REALITY of BAAANG. And so I have CHOSEN to "Stand On The Shoulders Of Giants". In Latin it means "Nanos Gigantium Humeris Insidentes". It is one of my favorite mantras.
I don't read about GIANTS like those mentioned above so I can go 'WOW'. I read them so that I can "SEE FURTHER". Those GIANTS, and the many others I have researched are and were only DOTS, just like me. Just like you. I read about them for knowledge and wisdom. I read about them because they have proved themselves and are sharing invaluable information with me. With all of us. 
Read the stuff above again. About the character traits of GIANTS. There's nothing in their makeup that each and every one of us cannot achieve. For me, I have already got there, and then some. You are a dot. The same as me. The same as them. All that you have to do is make a CHOICE. Do you want to wait for the BAAAANG of REALITY or "Nanos Gigantium Humeris Insidentes".
Funny thing is that, as you know, I am WORKING BACKWARDS. I am on a Journey and you are with me because you are reading ME. So indirectly you have, or are in the process of making a CHOICE. See dot:

                               ALL GIANTS WERE ONCE DOTS........

                              ......ALL DOTS CAN BECOME GIANTS


Just have to make a CHOICE......... 


or wait for the BAAAAANG........ of Reality.......and tell everyone how good it was reading about somebody else!


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GIANTS

1/21/2013

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"We are all like dwarfs standing on the shoulders of giants. We see more, and things that are more distant, than they did, not because our sight is superior or because we are taller than they are but because they raise us up, and by their great stature add to ours"

                                            -    John Of Salisbury, 12th century theologian and author
                                                 Sir Isaac Newton also made the phrase famous
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....OOOOMMM, dat a fly or a dot?....
Some people were just born to be big on this earth. Giants in their own little world. When I say big I mean famous, rich maybe, political leaders, humanitarians, Nobel Prize winners, scientists, doctors, sporting legends and whatever. So people like Einstein, Newton, Edison, Edwin Land (Polaroid), and more modern legends like Steve Jobs, Bill Gates, JFK, Martin Luther King, Nelson Mandela and Mother Theresa, were all born to make an impression on mankind in one form or another. But why? Why were those people 'chosen' to be given an opportunity to shape history? Hmmmm.......
Well more than likely we will never know but there are and always will be pioneers and leaders within specific fields that will help determine the destiny of man. People that will leave us EXPERIENCES from which we all can learn. From which we MUST learn  to SEE further.

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.... now dats one BIIIIG mama.....
Of course there are also the BAAAAD people that have left experiences we would prefer not to have had. Dictators like Hitler, Mussolini, Idi Amin, Saddam Hussein. The criminals and serial killers that have destroyed human life without reason and left their scar of destruction for many living to bear. Then their are the "ordinary" people who battle through their lives, bringing up good and respectable families, doing what they need to survive. The unsung heroes of human existence.
Since the evolution of man there have been over one hundred billion of weee human beings that have come and gone. From dust to dust. Then there's US seven billion or so that are alive and kicking for up to another hundred years. Then the skeleton figure will be 107 billion and rising rapidly.
And you know what the difference is between all of the good famous, baaad famous and ordinary famous?
NOTHING.
We are ALL dots. Born the same, die the same. None more important than any other. It's just that this GAME we are all involved in called LIFE offers each and every one of us OPPORTUNITIES with an option to take them up. Some do. Most don't. It's where the GIANTS come in. As the quote from John Of Salisbury above says the GIANTS raise us up, and by their great stature add to ours so that we can see further. And that is in a nutshell what is happening with all of weee dots. The wheel (of life) just keeps on turning. But there will be a "chosen" one every now and then who will help change the course of history. We all think that 'someone' is special, more important than us. But in the overall big picture these 'chosen' one's are dots, the SAME as every other one of us in this crazzeee world.

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.....seen any dem little dots dear?.....
But there is one big difference between US and THEM. And that difference is CHOICE. We are all given the CHOICE to do what we want with our lives. Some make good choices some make bad. But the really terrible thing is that most of us don't bother to CHOOSE. We just get born, survive and then die. We do not even TRY to "Stand On The Shoulders Of Giants". A big reason for that is the EGO that gets in our way causing ATTACHMENT to things that are not important such as material things. But we can't SEE that because we CHOOSE not to. A lot of the reason is apathy.
I'm one of the lucky ones. I was given an opportunity through hardship to get rid of the EGO and LOOK. I stood on the Giants' shoulders and could 'SEE' further. Now I have an opportunity to make a difference. And I will.
Because I AM A DOT.
Same as YOU.........

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THE STORY IN YOU

1/20/2013

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"Life is an opportunity.
A chance.
An unimaginable gift.
And we should treat it that way every day.
Because when the last of these days is suddenly taken from us, what will be left is what we did.
Not what we meant to do.
Not what we thought about doing.
But what we did".

                            -    Melody Beattie, Author "The Grief Club"
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.....how much 'dem stories pay dot?...
So over the last week or so I have been telling you about the songs which I have created, right?
WHY?
Well it's not to show you how brilliant I am, because I'm not. And it's not because my favourite topic is music, because it's not. And it's not because I'm running out of discussion topics, because I'm not.
 The reason I have told you about the songs is because I am WORKING BACKWARDS. I am telling my STORY..... BACKWARDS.
I am telling my story into the future and as I tell it then what I am telling you becomes an EXPERIENCE. An experience is in the PAST, no? Otherwise I wouldn't have experienced it. In my book I call it the FUTURE PAST. To explain...... As I am typing this BLOG thingie I am typing into my future. But once I have typed the words they are no longer the future because I have completed the EXPERIENCE. This last line that I have just written is now PAST, a past experience. Do you GROK it? Pretty simple really. So where is the PRESENT TIME. Well the PRESENT has got to be a FREEZE FRAME, a MOMENT in time. The present is in between the PAST EXPERIENCE which I have just completed typing and the FUTURE which I am typing into, no? 

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....that could be your story dot.....
So where is this heading? Well I am CREATING MY STORY. Some of it has happened and some of it is going to happen because I am CREATING THE STEPS. I am putting myself in a position to CREATE THE STORY. If I didn't write the songs that I have been telling you about over the last few days then the SONGS cannot be a part of my story, which they are. If my MIND had not given me the songs then I would not have created the songs in which case I will not produce them because they are not a part of my future which means that they cannot become an experience which means they cannot be in my past which means that they cannot become a part of this STORY, which, as you know I am telling backwards. Hmmmmm......... don't think the English is getting much betterer!

Every single one of us has a STORY. Not necessarily the one you are living. In fact that is very unlikely. But each of us has a story inside us, in the same place as our DREAMS. Some dreams will be the actual story themselves. But guess where they are and who has them?
 WooooHooooo, weeeelll doooone dot. Correct. Mister SomeOne Out-There has them inside of YOU. Those STORIES, those DREAMS are a part of you. They are your MIND!!!!!
YOUR STORY (or DREAM) is a part of who you are, a huuuuge part of your one and only life. Your STORY is locked up inside you and will probably stay there, and more than likely will die with you. Mmmm Hmmm. Sad huh? What a waste of a good story. A story that probably everybody on this Earth place would love to hear. A story that might help us, a story that might make us laugh, or cry. YOUR STORY.

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....a Story about the kids maybe?....
Sure it took hardship for me to find MSOT but it doesn't have to be that way. I will show you how to find him. It's what BLOG thingie is for. It's what DotsHQ is about. It's what MY STORY is about. I am telling you into my FUTURE what my STORY is about. Then I am taking STEPS to EXPERIENCE the STORY so that it becomes my PAST and I can tell it to you. Again, I am telling my story BACKWARDS because MSOT has already given the story to me to tell. It is my FUTURE PAST that I am telling. I'm doing it right NOW as I am writing this stuff. The STORY is not just in my MIND. It IS my MIND.
EVERY SINGLE LIVING DOT HAS A STORY. Some of us already have some of it in our PAST. Most of us have it in our FUTURE.
The FUTURE PAST. That's where your STORY is.
Pretty simple really.............

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BE IN ME

1/19/2013

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"The body can be regarded as a LOCAL pheomenon and can only be treated with LOCAL physically based approaches anchored in the here and now. But the MIND, infinate in space and time, is NON-LOCAL and can bring about profound change in the human body"

                                            Larry Dossey, M.D., Author 'Recovering The Soul'
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......Where are you?.....I miss you...
One night I was asleep in La Chateau. I woke up as I often do, and began reading a new book of poems by a Persian Mystic named Rumi. Some of you may remember I have used some of his verse in BLOG thingie before. I just luuuurve his writing! Anyway one of the verses I read was beautiful, well to me anyway. As I often do as well, I grabbed my exercise book and copied the verse. I had a yawn or two and went back to sleep. But there was something about that piece of verse. I had read literally hundreds of his verses but none had jumped out at me like this one. The next day at the Library I re-read the verse. And with that came a vision of my version of what the poem was about (did that make sense dot?). Anyway I have researched a lot about LOSS and the negativity that any loss brings with it. LOSS creates the perfect NEGOB. So you lose your partner or a close family member or friend, or you lose your business or home. Any LOSS creates grief. The actual LOSS itself is the OBSTACLE. But then the NEGATIVITY starts eating into you, sometimes with tragic consequences. But this bit of verse was telling me something. It was a positive message. This is how the verse reads:

"I filled the garden with candles tonight,
set the table with wine and sweets
and called the musicians.
How I wish that you could be here !
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So that bit of verse hit a nerve. A good one. It planted a seed in my MIND and my MIND went to work. All of the previous songs I had created were light hearted pieces featuring some of the areas of life at the bottom. Put to music they should provide a pleasant experience for the public. They will also be great entertainment when I begin my seminars (called 'A Significant Event' if you remember). The trouble with all of the ra-ra's is that they are informational without entertainment. I will provide both.
But this new song is what I wanted to get out there to show that LOSS and GRIEF can be overcome. It is a story of victory over adversity. In a round about way it is about me. In a round about way it is about all of us who experience LOSS and GRIEF, and there are a heap of us in this world of turmoil right now. After I had written the lyrics to the song with the support of a very active MIND I realised that what I had was something special. Now I had to compose the musical side of this beautiful song. And there was something else.........
All of the other songs I had deliberatly structured around my voice range so that if I could sing at all then I would give it a chance within my own vocal limits. But when I structured BE IN ME it had to have some power and high notes which I could not reach.....well so I thought. Hmmmmm..........
Back to the beach, and the roar of the waves, and the late afternoon with nobody that could possibly hear. I cleared my throat......as you do....... and then sang this, this stuff. I don't know where it came from but, well this BIIIG noise came out. Oh dear. What was becoming of me.
I had a song. A big one. I thought for a long time and decided on 'BE WITH ME'. Yep that sounded cooool. I kept going over and over the vision in my head for days and days. Then, again, while I was walking along the beach for some reason my MIND just said it to me:

                                                                    BE IN ME
It will go NUMER ONE........
No, I haven't been drinking!

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