"It was time.
Time for me to leave
I had been waiting. There was no surprise.
There was only one certainty in life
I was about to find that certainty through my Earthly demise
I still can't work out what my life was about
Learned my lessons through fate causing the pain no doubt
But with eyes wide shut I could see so much more
The opening to eternal light, the closing of a door
With a smile of anticipation I lay waiting, no fear
For my mind was prepared. I shed one single tear
That little drop of destiny down my cheek it rolled
The Angels were calling, the truth now would unfold
My body was done and the light it had come
No ordinary brilliance, the rest of eternity had begun
My Spirit stared in awe at this wondrous energy of light
Breathtaking beauty of belief in faith's fearless flight
With a feeling unrequited this brilliant light of pure love
Into the eternal distance spread these majestic rays from above
But not light as we know it, more a Universal radiance of ONE
Guiding me forward toward the silhouette of love I'd become
And through that light of eternity the silhouette I could see
Was in fact the soul I'd been chasing to transcend the real ME
I now realise the reason for the life left behind
Simply a call of ONE consciousness, a silhouette of my MIND"
aka Brendan Lauritz
Copyright 2014 (Remember........ Norman Bates!!!!!)
Heee Heee. Aarrhhmm. No it's not a true story. It's another attempt at a joke to lift any sagging Spirits. Weeeelll after my first joke attempt in the last BLOG thingie, the stats (number of 'hits') did the biggest vertical jump ever-erer so I don't know whether that's because of my first ever-erer BLOG thingie joke, or maybe mind boggling poem, or maybe the salubriously sensational story, postcard pictures or what. So I thought I'd have one more (last) crack at being a comedian. Hmmmm ..... No ????? OhK. I'll scrap "stand up comedian' off my bucket list then........ It was never in my dream anyway! ........... Speaking of which.......
As I move closer to the 'dream breaker' I can let you in on a weee widdle bit of what I'm up to. See, I've written this Rock Opera/ Musical sorta thingie. The foundation for the play is based on this dude who sorta stuffs up his life and sorta dreams of doing something else for the rest of his life. Sorta Moi. Something he wants to do. Something that matters. Anyway along the way he meets someone out there who changes his life. The dude's name is Mister Someone Out-There. And around that is built THE STORY for my Rock Opera. It is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo coooooooooooooooooooooool. And the music is quite amazing. And then along with the Rock Opera is a whooole lotta other stuff. And ..... weeell that's all I can tell you just right now. But it is happening and it will happen. It was never not going to happen........
But it is important to understand this. When I wrote my book and then had my story told on National television and every other media thingie while I was living in the tent, I did so with the intention of creating the FOUNDATION for the story about the ability that each and every one of us has to beat the tragedy and hardship odds, the pain and suffering odds that are not only a necessary part of life, but ARE life. The pain and suffering is simply the NEXT STEP of our eternal Journey. And so I made the decision to change. The life lessons had shown me how to survive with NOTHING so that if it took me years to completely re-invent myself then so be it. I was armed with the KNOWLEDGE that no matter what happened while I was STEPping toward my DREAM, I could survive the bad stuff. So my call to "Dear Mister Out-There" for help was only a result of the life lessons, which I like to term "life blessings".........
My MIND had taken over because I had asked it to. I had surrendered myself. Now a hand was guiding me because I needed help and had called out for HEEEELP. I KNEW to WORK BACKWARDS. I left the rest up to whoever it was looking after ME. Then the really spooky part. The VOICE in the tent. TWO WORDS. The name of one of the songs I had created. That was when I knew that I was being guided. No pressure like I had in the Corporate fiasco of a life that had past before me. It didn't matter how long this project, this BIIIIG DREAM, of mine would take....... AS LONG AS I BELIEVED.
Just like the book, and the website, and the BLOG thingie, and the poems, and the songs, I now have a complete script for a Rock Opera .........
FROM ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
See, that Mister SomeOne Out-There dude that I had found..... Weeeell he had been knocking inside of ME for my whole life but I wouldn't answer the door until something bad happened. Then when I answered the door he gave me all this stuff and a reason for my life. Part of that reason is to show y'all that you too should answer your door and find out what you really have inside you. I had turned a lot of my poetry into songs. They were all sorta related to my demise and the struggle. But they were not 'connected' in any way that could be of use to me, or so I then thought. But now I have linked them all to make a Rock/Opera. How did I do that? It defies logic. It explains something though. I do not HOPE something will happen. I CREATE. Then I give myself 100% BELIEF which gives me an equation:
100% BELIEF = I KNOW
The very beginning of my Rock Opera begins with a Narrator (Candy Girl) proclaiming:
"Your life so far is your STORY
Your story is PAST
It cannot be controlled
Your DREAM is your FUTURE
You can control the outcome of your dream
Make your dream your story..............
And with that beginning follows a great Rock Opera/ Musical.
'Mazing, huh? The Musical is two halves. First half before Intermission is THE STORY, the second half is THE DREAM. I make the dream become the story eggs actly as I am now doing in real life. The end of the concert is the manifestation of the dream. The DREAM THAT BECOMES THE STORY. Just like is really happening in my life, which just happens to be my story that I keep Stepping toward in my dream. Howzat, you ask? Hmmm..... good question dot.
See to Moi real life goes a bit like this............."
PRESENT .... FUTURE .... PAST (Repeat for eternity)
Tick Tick Tick. We become conscious of other humans in this big DREAM from birth. We communicate and LEARN stuff from previous life STORIES. We take pictures and videos of our life STORIES. We LIVE THE DREAM. As we live our DREAMS forward into our future, the DREAM becomes our STORY. So we start off with all DREAM and end up with all STORY (all bell in our curve, remember?). Before we started the DREAM of life into our future, our MINDS, which do the THINKING and CREATE the STORY of our lives, are the vehicle for turning the future into past, the dream into the story. It is our MINDS that CONTROL our DESTIN-EE. But the DREAM of LIFE is finite. It ends with our bodily demise. But the never ending question is "When does the DREAM end?" or maybe even "Is there an end to the DREAM?" Hmmmm...... But then all of a sudden there is no more DREAM left. Only STORY. So at that point just before the body gives up it is the end of the DREAM and the end of the STORY. Or is it?
Well, I don't think so. I think the dream keeps going. The body now a silhouette amongst the light of truth. But that's just what I believe through my faith. If you don't BELIEVE in yourself, in God, in the Spirit of eternity, in the silhouette. Weeeeell, I guess it must be pretty scary waiting for the inevitable end of body, no???
Anyway as that great Philosopher Ronnie Rowboat philosophized (maybe sorta kinda!):
Gently down the stream
Merrily Merrily Merrily Merrily
LIFE IS BUT A DREAM