TWO TEARS
"Strip back the layers of guilt and remorse
Until you stand naked in the field of dreams
Then peel away the skin of self sympathy
And let the blood of shame slowly permeate the soil
When the body of existence has all but disappeared
There will remain only two single tears
Feel them trickle down through the purity of light that is your soul
and into the deep well of consciousness abundant within the ocean of mystery
There your spirit will find the essence of being
The answers to the questions
And the radiance of an eternal light of the Majestic
will forever shine upon the dream of all dreams
For within your dream is your destiny
where two tears will dry within the warmth of your love"
- TriggerDot
- aka Brendan Lauritz
- Copyright 2014

I really think I'm going a bit kooky. Like kooky crazzeee. Sorta nutsville city limits. Weeell in fact I've known about it for quite some time now. There have been many warning signs. A bit like The Twilight Zone there seems to be something 'out there'.....
I know you feel a bit sorry for me (I can hear the "Aaaawwwwww's" from here) but I am quite accepting of my kookiness. I mean 5 years livin' in the bush and sleeping in a tent 'ain't eggs actly the 'Stairway to Harvard' now is it? So with such an optimistic introduction it must be time to tell you a kooky story which should leave you with no doubt about my insanity. In fact I have lots of similar type stories but I cover them up under the quilt of "Synchronicity", which is meaningful co-incidences, which was created by one of our greatest philosophers and fellow kooky whatshisname.....hmmm... what IS his name?????? Hmmm..... oh I know Carl Jung, that's it. Anyway now to the kooky story....
A long long time ago ('bout 4 weeks actually) I was doing my usual version of wrestle the doona, turning this way and that, sorta in and out of consciousness. Now this is a regular occurrence for moi as I contend with my over active mind. Quite often I will get up, put the kettle on, make a coffee and continue writing whatever I am working on. If my creativity is crankin' I'll sometimes keep writing until after daybreak. But not this night.......
I know you feel a bit sorry for me (I can hear the "Aaaawwwwww's" from here) but I am quite accepting of my kookiness. I mean 5 years livin' in the bush and sleeping in a tent 'ain't eggs actly the 'Stairway to Harvard' now is it? So with such an optimistic introduction it must be time to tell you a kooky story which should leave you with no doubt about my insanity. In fact I have lots of similar type stories but I cover them up under the quilt of "Synchronicity", which is meaningful co-incidences, which was created by one of our greatest philosophers and fellow kooky whatshisname.....hmmm... what IS his name?????? Hmmm..... oh I know Carl Jung, that's it. Anyway now to the kooky story....
A long long time ago ('bout 4 weeks actually) I was doing my usual version of wrestle the doona, turning this way and that, sorta in and out of consciousness. Now this is a regular occurrence for moi as I contend with my over active mind. Quite often I will get up, put the kettle on, make a coffee and continue writing whatever I am working on. If my creativity is crankin' I'll sometimes keep writing until after daybreak. But not this night.......

I turned the bedside lamp on and felt for my exercise book which I always keep close at hand. All I found was a sheet of used A4 and a pen sitting on top. Still a bit groggy I...... (or was it me ???)...... wrote that verse above in about 10 minutes I guess. I remember turning off the light and going back to sleep. I never gave it another thought until a few nights back when I found the paper under some other stuff I had thrown on top. The hand writing is very scribbly as if I was drunk or off my tree but I was very very straight as I normally am. When I read that verse it took me back to when I wrote it. I read it again, and again, and again. It's like somebody else wrote it for me. Or somebody wrote it TO me. I think it is telling me to stop looking back (even though I make a conscious effort not to) and that my dream is eternal, not just for this life. Or have I written a message to all of you trying to convey my own feelings and thoughts, but not fully conscious when I did the writing?
Hmmmm.... Dunno. Bit freaky though. As I said before I have had many meaningful co-incidences (Carl Jung's Synchronicity) happen since I rock bottomed. Lots and lots. But this is different because there is no co-incidence as far as I can see. The verse doesn't rhyme either, not that it has to, but most of my poems I try to rhyme, especially if I intend to song write them. Also the message is very strong and the writing symbolic of my own feelings but I would normally take a lot longer than a blink in bed to write something like that. So...... who DID write it ???? Hmmmmm......
Well I'll lay claim to it 'cause I think it's pretty cooool. Should make a nice song later on when I get what I am working on. ???????
Hmmmm.... Dunno. Bit freaky though. As I said before I have had many meaningful co-incidences (Carl Jung's Synchronicity) happen since I rock bottomed. Lots and lots. But this is different because there is no co-incidence as far as I can see. The verse doesn't rhyme either, not that it has to, but most of my poems I try to rhyme, especially if I intend to song write them. Also the message is very strong and the writing symbolic of my own feelings but I would normally take a lot longer than a blink in bed to write something like that. So...... who DID write it ???? Hmmmmm......
Well I'll lay claim to it 'cause I think it's pretty cooool. Should make a nice song later on when I get what I am working on. ???????

If you have been reading me, aka BLOG thingie, for a while I think you will figure out where this kooky spooky stuff comes from, huh?
See it goes a little bit like this. I have talked about the MIND which 'ain't part of our bodies. Nup, not part of our brain which I have pointed out many times. The MIND feeds the brain our THOUGHTS then we make our CHOICES using the head gear we've been supplied, right? OhK.
So when I CHOSE to look for, and consequently found, my Upper Case ME, my REAL me, my inner self in other words, THAT was the world I CHOSE to live in. Because I made the right CHOICE in my MIND I am now given a help to complete the Journey which I CHOSE. My MIND which gives me the THOUGHTS to analyse and action, is a part of our Universal Consciousness and because it now knows the type of stuff I need it gives them to me in ways to make me THINK into my future where my dream resides. Because I BELIEVE in where I am going and how I can get there I am given the fuel to make it happen and keep stepping toward the final destination. And BELIEF is the key to the door to let you in when you get there. Along the way stuff happens which may seem spooky kooky to the tune of backing music of the Twilight Zone. But it's not. If you CHOOSE to look for what you BELIEVE in you will find it and the spooky kooky helping hand will take you where you want to go and give you unexpected gifts. Just like the spooky kooky verse it gave me.....
When you BELIEVE in yourself and where you are going it won't be spooky kooky any more. It will be ....
......The DESTINY in your DREAM......
See it goes a little bit like this. I have talked about the MIND which 'ain't part of our bodies. Nup, not part of our brain which I have pointed out many times. The MIND feeds the brain our THOUGHTS then we make our CHOICES using the head gear we've been supplied, right? OhK.
So when I CHOSE to look for, and consequently found, my Upper Case ME, my REAL me, my inner self in other words, THAT was the world I CHOSE to live in. Because I made the right CHOICE in my MIND I am now given a help to complete the Journey which I CHOSE. My MIND which gives me the THOUGHTS to analyse and action, is a part of our Universal Consciousness and because it now knows the type of stuff I need it gives them to me in ways to make me THINK into my future where my dream resides. Because I BELIEVE in where I am going and how I can get there I am given the fuel to make it happen and keep stepping toward the final destination. And BELIEF is the key to the door to let you in when you get there. Along the way stuff happens which may seem spooky kooky to the tune of backing music of the Twilight Zone. But it's not. If you CHOOSE to look for what you BELIEVE in you will find it and the spooky kooky helping hand will take you where you want to go and give you unexpected gifts. Just like the spooky kooky verse it gave me.....
When you BELIEVE in yourself and where you are going it won't be spooky kooky any more. It will be ....
......The DESTINY in your DREAM......