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WHY ME BE ?

10/19/2014

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THE BE IN ME

Why am I here? Who am I ? Where do I come from ?
Pretty easy questions to answer if you have an opinion
I used to be an ape, or a fish, a rock at some stage
Maybe a frog one kiss turned into a handsome paige

The scientists tell me we all started with a Big Bang
Well no ship Sherlock as Daddy gave Mummy a twang
Obviously Adam and the snake into Eve gave a start
Yeah but where'd the rib come from to make the legs part

Well the rib came from Adam yeah but how'd he appear
That's easy, back to Big Bang, he's made of carbon I hear
Oh I get it now Adam copped an extra carbonated bit
And then Eve was ribbed and the extra bit became a hit

See there wasn't any telly or cars, drugs or grog
Only the two of them and Big Bang, no hair of the dog
And so it was that the human race we now see
Obvious answers to questions how I came to be me

But if I were you I wouldn't get too carried away
with the Big Bang theory how Adam rolled Eve in the hay
There's gotta be more like where'd the carbon come from
That gave Adam the tip to help Eve play along

So if you're struggling with all of the reasons we be
Look no further than a flower or a tree
For Divine beauty is all that there needs to be known
The rest doesn't matter the seed of creation has grown

                                -    Brendan Lauritz
                                -    (Heeeeeeelp..........)
PictureJust amaaazing what a Big Bang can produce !
As you can probably tell I'm a bit down in the dumps at the moment. See I've decided to rework my Rock Opera and it's driving me craaazzeee. So because my head was hurting I needed to try some different type of writing to get the creativity a'crankin' so obviously BLOG thingie came to mind. But trouble with that is when I write BLOG thingie sometimes I get a bit silly, as you probably already know from previous insanity outbursts. Now really I had this other poem already to rock, but then I thought it was a bit boring for down in the dumps day so I went on my usual "mental asylum extracts from a tortured soul" and served up the same old ship. Oh well if I get a smile 'spose it's worth it. Which leads me to the subject material of the Big Bang and associated ship.....
See I went to the Library (yep still do it) and found these two interesting DVD thingies. One called "Wonders Of The Universe" and the other "Wonders of the Solar System". Now because I have become a bit fruit loopy after all the pain and suffering stuff I thought a bit of extra knowledge wouldn't hurt, even though I tort I'd read it all before. But alas NO. Oh this stuff is nerve shattering mind blowing information of a different kind. This no less is up the date (sorry 'up TO date') ship for my "UIB" (useless information book).
Now see there's this dude who I have never heard of before (don't forget I was missing in the Stairway To Harvard for a few years!). His name is Professor Brian Cox. No doubt many of you know of him. Now this guy is good. I really like him. Obviously smart 'cause he's a Professor but not a Nutty one. See he's into media stuff thingies and promotes himself on TV and does DVD thingies for the BBC. And he seems pretty normal for a genius. I watched the 'Universe' DVD thingie. Ooooh maaaan, this guys good. He knew about heaps of stuff that normal people can't understand. Therefore it makes him look smart because you assume he is, without really knowing 'cause you can't understand what you're watching. But me. Nup. Uh uh. No way. I'm one of the tent people. I needed to know more about this guy. I Wiki'ed him. Yep, apart from the fact he's a genius there's other stuff about him that normal people don't know. Like he was in People Magazine's Sexiest People On the Planet thingie in 2009. Mmmmm Hmmm...... and .... cop this ...
He was a keyboard player for a big UK band called D-Ream. Mmmm Hmmm .... remember "Thingies can only get better-erer, Can only get better-erer, Now I found you and you and you and you". Mazing huh? Genius band boy.....
Oh, and he's worth around 8 million UK pound which is lots I think.....
So anyway his DVD on the Universe is really coooool. He talks about the Big Bang..... It was then I realised. Doctor Sheldon Cooper from Big Bang Theory. Yep. All made sense. The Nutty Professor is a Sheldon Cooper wannabee. Mmmm Hmmm......
But he's still very good. He doesn't talk in sweets like hundreds and thousands. He talks BIIIG. Everything is millions, billions and trillions. I kept waiting for the answers to the questions. The "Why Me Be" thingies. And he had me going. I was ready to join the Nutty Professor cult. But then. Weeeell there's stuff he came out with like in one hundred trillion trillion trillion trillion trillion trillion, trillion, trillion (seriously that's what he said) the last star of 30 million million million stars will Big Bang and that will be the end of WE. No more. Just nothing. No more stars to 'bang'. So obviously Eve will be disappointed up the other end of the 'How We Be' Universe. But you know, by then I'm going to be very old or very deaded and definitely not interested in any sort of Bangs!
To explain my paranoia with all things Universal I'm one of these 'Infinite Regress" dudes that always has to ask a question to an answer and the Nutty Professor was coming up with all the right stuff. Like this for instance. When one of the googillion stars goes Big Bang it is called a Supernova. All these gases generated by all the bangin' turn into 92 different elements. One of those elements is Carbon. And carbon is what creates life. So as much as you thought I'm full of ship I'm not. I'm full of carbon! And so are you and everything else. OhK. I thought he had me. Finally there was no God. Only smart scientists. But I had one last question for Nutty. OhK.....
Where did the stars come from to go Big Bang. That's when Nutty began to blow bubbles. No really, get the DVD. This genius is sitting in the middle of a desert all by himself blowing bubbles through one of those bubble blowing thingies. He was trying to explain that Mister Proton would hump Mrs Neutron and create these thingies that grew into.......... anyway that's when I lost him. A grown man blowing bubbles to explain how WE BE. It was sorta like Jack Nicholson in "One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest".
I mean who do I believe ? The Nutty Professor Bubble Blower or the man who stars in his own show Doctor Sheldon Cooper.
Anyway gotta get back to the music. See ya.
Stay cooool.....

            "I'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air .......

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Yep, Mister Proton and Ms Neutron began the Big Bang
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THE STALKER

10/8/2014

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STALKER

"Feeling the footsteps of fear I cautiously looked behind
Nothing I could see but the vision of a troubled mind
'Evil' the Stalker was there watching, waiting to pounce
Petrified I staggered ahead, no feeling, no bounce

Started sweating profusely, my heart racing with anxiety
Was that a shadow, or some other menacing propriety
How close is this 'Evil', heavy breathing down my neck
Is this real or should I keep my paranoia in check

Trembling with fear I looked back expecting the worst
My mind creating that vision, a final journey in a hurst
I started to run into the darkened alley ahead
Seeking solace from the danger, the evil Stalker I dread

Panic. I stumbled. Fell forward into my dream
Looked over my shoulder and waited, the end nigh it would seem
It was then that I looked up into fear, the missing love I can see
Thank God I smiled, and sighed a gust of relief
For that vision, my past, that Stalker, was ME...."

        -    TriggerDot
        -    aka Moi
        -    aka Brendan Lauritz
PictureThe hardest love of all ??? But the love that defines our existence
I don't often look back at my writing. I write my feelings then move on. Although you read me I am not writing to you. I am writing to ME. You are reading how I feel at a given MOMENT IN TIME. Self sympathy you may ask (if you did, good question!). Nah. Not really. As I have said sooooo many times I am blessed. Blessed with failure. Blessed with sorrow. Blessed with Miser-ee. Blessed with the past, my 'Stalker'. For the past has defined my future. Mistakes? Oh sooooo many.
Regrets? Oh shoot yeah...
But where are those mistakes and regrets? They are behind me. So I can stop. Turn around and enjoy their company ........... NNNNOT ............. Or I can choose what I believe is a much better alternative. I can glance at them over my shoulder and smile ...... and then move forward into my dream where I have some control. I can manifest my dream into life, into a STORY where I don't mind what I see when I look over my shoulder into the past.
Each and every one of us suffers from the damage caused by the evil NEGOBS, the NEGATIVITY caused by OBSTACLES. The obstacles are MOMENTS IN TIME outside of our control. The car crash, the heart attack, the unexpected financial wipeout ..... and the reasons go on. But it is the NEGATIVITY, the anger, the depression, the grief, revenge, heartbreak, the sorrow .... that plays with our minds and are the destructive part of the NEGOBS. Some of us are blessed with great support networks to help us, great family, great friends ........ BUT ....
it is our own fear that controls the decisions to help us handle the emotional trauma that tries to dictate the CHOICES we make. So...
If we have a medical problem we can have treatment to right the wrong, even major surgery. Heart surgery, brain surgery.....
But what about a problem that stops us in our tracks. What about the grief? What about the heartbreak caused by loss of our partner or friend even. Have you ever heard of MIND surgery. Hmmmm.... doubt it!
There has to be a greater existence than this one life. Universal consciousness is the unexplained, the unknown ..... but the REASON, the MEANING. If we believe that there is something 'out-there' that started the whole shebang then it is easier to comprehend our MEs, our Mister Someone Out-There. This consciousness feeds each one of us our thoughts. Then we make the CHOICES, good or bad, that guide us through our lives. Once we choose our headgear brain thingies tell our bodies what to do and how to act. Not really too complicated when you think about it. Our Eastern world brothers and sisters have been living those 'dreams' forever. And that simplistic explanation of "WHY WE BE" sure makes more sense than the Big Bang Theory, weeeell to moi anyway. So by calling out for HEEEELP to 'Someone Out-There' when we are grieving, depressed, lonely ...... then we are calling out to a Universal Consciousness, the Mister Someone Out-There that lives in each of us. A simple matter of Self-Belief will help with the Negativity part of the NEGOBS......
But it 'ain't easy. That's why we have the suffering and pain from the Obstacles part of NEGOBS. The rock bottoms make us search for the Reason, the Meaning.... Mmmmm Hmmmm.......
and guess what.....
Yours truly, Moi struggles with this part on a daily basis.
Know why?
Because the Self-Belief is directly related to Self-Love which goes missing usually when we are at our lowest. And so the fight begins. The fight for self-esteem. The fight for LOVE, the Universal Consciousness kinda LOVE.
I know where I am going. I fortunately left Miser-ee, the town of fear, loneliness and despair, a long time ago. I know where my Destin-ee is. It is a town where there is no negativity. A town where there is the manifestation of the Dream Of Life. The town where I will find reward for my Self Belief. The town of Happy-Me. That town of......

                                        SELF-LOVE

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