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A NEW YEAR BLOSSOM

12/31/2013

THE FLOWER
" It was cold and damp, and oh so dark
Where was I? What was I?
Buried deep in the dirt in what they call a park
Hungry and thirsty. Man I'm so scared, maybe this is karma
Banished to this abyss for my sins, remnants of some past life drama

No feeling, alone, and empty, oh what am I to do?
But then the strangest thing, some tentacles, they grew
Creeping out from my centre, was this my heart to my soul
building some kind of foundation without my control?

I can't understand this position I'm in
Is it because of the past lives, the original sin?
Please give me an answer, you who made me become
This darkness it freaks me, I need the light of the sun

Upwards into nothingness my tentacles grow
My form taking shape, strong and straight up do I go
Then more tentacles grow out from the rod that is ME
This is getting really weird, what the hell could I be?

Wow, it's full steam ahead from the darkness I dread
Now there's light from the sun and raindrops to drink
I keep growing stronger, getting happier I think
Then these buds began growing and opening up
Just like magic I blossom, a heavenly cup

Didn't last long this beauty my cup shrivelled and died
Then some alien he cut me, the finish, I cried
But my tears must have nourished, another bud was to form
The new bud opened up and my beauty reborn

So now I am many, cups of beauty abound
Hanging off my life tentacles, my foundation is sound
Karma of life given, the creation of Divine power
Each cup of beauty reborn, they call me THE FLOWER"

                                    -    TriggerDot
                                    -     aka    Brendan Lauritz
                                    -    Copyright 2014 (reminder... heard of serial killers???)

Well Happy New Year to you all. I hope you all enjoyed the celebrations last night. I was knocking out zzzzzzzz's at the year's turn until the biggest BANG began..... the fireworks display nearby. Almost soiled the sheets I did!
So with the change of year I hope some of you have committed to CHANGES in your life..... for the greater good of course. You may have noticed I have made a CHANGE myself in that I have changed the 'look' of the website. Hope y'all like it.
You know how I was talking about the Christmas spirit. Well I think I've come up with a great commercial proposition. A new concept per se. It's called "THE Jar Of Joy" and it works like this.......
You get a jar. Any sort of jar. Glass, plastic, whatever. But it must have a lid so that it can be sealed. Hang the jar opened on your Chrissie tree. Then after the kids have opened their pressies, and the Carols By Chrissie Tree have been sung, and the turkey has taken up most of your tum, the giggles and laughter have made the day fun, and the smiles and happiness have filled the room with love...... STOP. Take the jar off the tree and sit around in a circle with the jar in the centre. Then all close your eyes and hold the jar as ONE. Because that is what you are on that very special once a year day. You are a family. ONE. Then take all of the special moments of that day and wish them into the jar. Grab the lid and seal the jar of love, laughter and happiness. Then leave it sealed until midnight New Year. As the year turns open that Jar Of Joy, turn it upside down and wish the contents out into the whole world to SHARE, to enjoy, so that every person gets a piece of what you got on that special Chrissie day. See the problem is that we give Chrissie the joy within us for that special one day of the year when in fact all of the happiness, laughter and love should be "bottled" and the Spirit Of ONE shared..... Hmmmm, anyway.....

Can I ? Dunno. Sup to you....

As many of us struggle to CHANGE with New Year's resolutions, I hate to sound like the Grim Reaper but it is going to take a bit more than the tick tick tick of the clock into the new year to make real change happen. Let me give you a little example.
Before I crawled under the rock I had no interest, not even a thought, about gardening, flowers or anything to do with horticulture. My THINKING didn't get down to the level of looking for or 'seeing' the beauty in life. Last night I was looking out of the window and noticed the pink roses. They are in full bloom and are so beautiful. I was reading my book with "Nutcracker Suite" playing softly in the background (I never used to like classical music either!). As I gazed up over my book I became entranced by the roses. Now without appearing to be one beer short of a full slab, then I started to 'talk' to them. I put down the book, grabbed an exercise book and began to write the poem above. It was a creative opportunity to write. That is what happens with me now. Because I have CHANGED so dramatically I now know what to "LOOK" for. I THINK within my THOUGHTS, if you get the drift. My MIND generates my THOUGHTS, so I have CHANGED MY MIND.
I have given myself over to my Upper Case ME. I no longer try to force creativity. I let the hand of consciousness take me. When you ask for help from "Mister Someone Out-There" you make a commitment to CHANGE. Nobody has control over their past. It is gawn. Done and dusted. Dead and buried. But we have control of our future using lessons learned from our past. It is why I keep talking about my FUTURE PAST because each STEP we take into our future will eventually become our past. So if we are prepared to CHANGE our MIND and make the right CHOICES for our future, then we will be able to live the remainder of our lives the way that we NEED. The hand of consciousness will guide us along the right path (with moi it is the 'write path') to complete our Journey with total fulfilment. But it requires CHANGE. It requires us to LOOK within. So......

On my own personal Journey stuff that was important to me no longer matters. Stuff that I never gave a thought are now important in my life. Because of my dire situation I made a commitment to change. It was a CHOICE. It was an opportunity. But I wish (not regret) that I had made the right choices a lot earlier but I had nobody to teach me. I wouldn't LOOK until I had to. That's why I was blessed to become homeless. It gave me an opportunity to CHANGE. That Jar Of Joy I mentioned above. Well pre rock days I wouldn't have had anything to put in it. Now I do. Lots. And to be able to turn it upside down and turn it around on any day of the year is a privilege that came with the CHANGE. Because of the "bed" we make for ourselves through the routine of life it will be difficult to make significant CHANGE. It will need to be done over a long period, ONE STEP at a time. But if you are prepared to look for stuff to fill the Jar Of Joy and then prepared to share it with your world, then the charge for change will happen.
So as we approach the 2nd January, a not so special day, Chrissie's way gone for another year, the holies are just about done, we are just about to get back to 'normality'. Back to 'Survival' mode. Aaaarrgghh!!!!
Pretty sad really, when you THINK about it, hey dot.

CHANGE IF YOU WANT, NOT WHAT YOU WANT

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SOUL MUSIC

12/26/2013

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"So this is Christmas
And what have you done?
Another year over
And a new one just begun

And so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young

A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear

And so this is Christmas
For weak and for strong
For rich and the poor ones
The world is so wrong

And so happy Christmas
For black and for white
For yellow and red ones
Let's stop all the fight

A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear

And so this is Christmas
And what have we done?
Another year over
And a new one just begun

And so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young

A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear

War is over over
If you want it
War is over Now"

- John Lennon
aka Beatle Boy

He did

WOW. I'm sure you all know the song. When you read the lyrics the music should be flowing through your veins. Music of the soul.
Why is that?
Hmmmm..........
I just luuuurve John Lennon. If you get a chance listen to his last interview on radio a few days before he was taken you would understand that he was a very lovable, philosophical dot, just like you and moi. He was also a musical genius. "Out there" but a genius. As well known as he was he really did care. He tried to use his notoriety to change things. With his 'Bed sit" with Yoko down to his "Rock 'N Roll" album and his brilliant song "Imagine" he created a footprint for us to follow.. John Lennon was a dot. A very important dot. He was trying to send a message. He did.....
So now I'd like to share something important in my own Journey. A life lesson well learned. To create my own footprint. A STORY that hasn't completed...... YET!
Once upon a time I was going nowhere. Chasing shadows of my existence. Always moving toward what I'd left behind. And then something happened to wake me up. The light of the sun changed direction and the shadow was no longer following me. No longer was I conscious of the shadow. Mister Someone Out-There was in my life, directing me toward my Destin-ee. Guiding me toward the light. He was in front, behind, below, above. He was now INSIDE ME. There was no shadow cast in any direction. Only light........
I had no idea where I was going but I was not lost. I had decided to do what I wanted to do for the rest of my very short existence. And so I gave myself over to BELIEF. In myself. In my ability. I took the hand that was to guide me, just like I did when I was a toddler holding my Mum's hand. I trusted. The hand of BELIEF to guide me on my Journey.

One helluva CUTE story, huh?

I began to read lessons from those who had gone before me. Knowledge was beginning to take control. Along with the knowledge came wisdom. The study of philosophy and the meaning of life. Although I had no idea where the path was taking me I felt safe in the knowledge that I was going to find a reason for me being ME. Then with the reading came the writing. I didn't know that I was going to write. I just did. Then I realised that the deep thinking I was doing in company with the knowledge I was accumulating and the new homeless experience, was throwing my emotions into absolute turmoil. All of a sudden I had something to write about. So I began to take notes in an exercise book. Just like a diary I guess. But it wasn't so much personal note taking. It was more documenting the new knowledge. I was beginning to see because I was looking.......
So over the next couple of years I kept note taking but it was becoming structured. I couldn't find what I was looking for in all of the Biographies, Self-Helps, Personal Development books. I was searching for answers I couldn't find. I knew there was a NEED. So I ended writing a book myself. It was no masterpiece but it was a snapshot of the turmoil in my life. I began to realise that I was creating a STORY. A story I needed to not only live but a STORY I needed to share. I kept trusting myself. I kept BELIEVING. Then strange things began to happen. Lots. I had read a book by the Philosopher Carl Jeung titled "Synchronicity" which explained how MEANINGFUL CO-INCIDENCES guided the 'hand' along my life's path. I studied and read about Eastern philosophy. I was taking small STEPS toward my Destin-ee. I learned meditation. And I began to gain confidence in myself. Not the type of confidence that made me successful in the Corporate world but confidence in my ability to make a difference...... as did John Lennon.

Let there be LIGHT in your New Year

My book was written during a period of emotional turmoil. I was battling my new homeless existence but gaining invaluable EXPERIENCE in life. Thingies that made me THINK. Thingies that gave me stuff to write about. When I had published the book I then needed to find a way to let people know the book was there. But I had no money for expensive publishing packages. So I decided to create a web site. But I knew nothing about computer thingies like that. So for one hour a day I got on the Library computer and worked out how to build a web site. Probably a simple exercise for some, but it took me a year. But the web site came with a BLOG thingie. Mmmm Hmmm.... Another avenue to put my thoughts to paper and communicate. BLOG thingie came with a facility to insert quotes. I had documented in my exercise books a whole lotta inspirational quotes from famous people and philosophers. So I shared those quotes with you. Then I had such strong emotional stuff to write about I decided to make up some quotes myself. My quotes turned into poetry, which I loved to write because it was such a creative part of me. Food for my soul.... Keep in mind at this point I had never ever considered writing anything pre-'under the rock' days, let alone poetry.
Then one day as I was taking my daily meditational walk along the beach I began to recite a poem I had written while I was down in the dumps, feeling sorry for myself. That poem was called "Broken Man". For some unknown reason I began to put MUSIC to the poems. My first song was born. I was hooked. The music to the poem gave me an emotional 'hook up' to my soul.
Then I began to put music to some other poems I had written. Don't know why. Just did. Something was pushing me in that direction. All related in some way to my Journey. The pain I was going through, the joy of my new found creativity. Poems with music to express the emotional turmoil of the trip. The MUSIC was my soul at work. It gave me the ability to create a message. I wrote a lot of songs. But then the next challenge. I was LOST in one particular area. It was making me crazy. What could I do with the songs. Hmmm.....
I let the 'hand' of ME take me. I trusted. I believed. Synchronicity then played it's 'hand' ('scuse the pun!). Lots of meaningful co-incidences have since happened. I needed a platform to give my MUSIC my soul. Just like John Lennon.......
Fast forward a bit.
All of the poems I had put to music were disjointed. Not connected in any way. Then one night in La Chateau Tento I was woken by a voice in my head. It told me the name of one of my songs. I didn't understand. Why? What did it mean?
Synchronicity continued to play it's 'hand'. I found a reason. I found the platform. I wrote a script. I discovered a connection for my poems, for my music. Like John Lennon I have found a way to get a message out. Putting my soul to MUSIC.
I am telling you my STORY by WORKING BACKWARDS. Continually CREATING, one STEP at a time. Connecting my soul to yours to carry a message. Just like John Lennon.........

His soul was in his music

"And so this is Christmas
And what have we done?
Another year over
And a new one just begun"

And so my STORY continues..........

I am a dot. The same as you. Don't let it be 'just another Christmas'. Another New Year of broken resolutions. A few days off before going back to the Busyness of survival. This time really THINK about life. Your life. Make a difference.......

                                    CREATE YOUR STORY
                                    that hasn't happened yet. Work Backwards

                                   ...... and continue to WATCH mine

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A REFLECTION IN TIME

12/22/2013

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MY REFLECTION
"It's been quite some time since I've written to chat
I know I've been pretty slack, no doubt about that
But I can honestly say you've been in my thoughts
That dreaded 'Writer's Block' NEGOB, a whole lotta noughts

This lack of communication's been a downright shame
But joy of all joys I'm back in the game
So privileged to see that you're all still checking in
I guess you're all wondering where the hell have I bin

Well it's like this you see, I've gone back to the start
Retrace the STEPS on my JOURNEY, ignite the spark in my heart
For the battle, the hardship, my GIFT of life lessons to learn
must not be forgotten, a fuel for the fire of life, to make it burn

To write is a STORY, putting THOUGHTS on paper to see
But if there are no thoughts in your MIND then it simply cannot BE
This next stage of the JOURNEY so CREATIVE, a CRITICAL POINT will unfold
Must check all of the foundations on which the structure for the STORY will be told

The pain and the suffering of life's lessons will diminish over TIME
So much easier to move forward without THINKING to that finishing line
But my STORY is no fantasy, no nursery rhyme, nor imagination run rife
It requires reflection on my JOURNEY, to be pensive, for this indeed is my LIFE

This time of the year is the mirror of your soul
The time for reflection, to understand your life's role
If you look into that mirror and don't like what you see
Then be blessed for the opportunity to find your real ME"

- TriggerDot
aka Brendan Lauritz

Well a HO HO HO and a HUM HUM HUM
I hope you finish Christmas with a very full tum!
Here we are again. A blink. Another Christmas. Such a wonderful time of the year, huh?
Maybe a few days off the normal Busyness of life. Maybe even a few weeks. Time to put the feet up and relax. Time with the family to get to know each other again. Time to enjoy the kids. Time to catch up with friends. Time to rejoice the true meaning and praise The Lord with Christmas Carols.
And a time to look in the mirror of life and REFLECT.
TIME......
In a week's time we approach a new year. We make and break New Year resolutions with great intent but little resolve. For some reason we treat a new year as an opportunity to get rid of some bad stuff and bring in some good stuff, right?
Hmmmm..........
This time last year I was still living in the tent. Alone. The year before that and the year before that and..... well you know the STORY by now. My Christmas for a few years were no different to any other days. Simply I was taking a STEP at a time. But one of the greatest gifts I had been given was a whoooole lotta TIME. A whole lot of time to REFLECT. I didn't have to wait for Christmas. My new life Journey was well under way.......

Every single dot on this planet has regrets. We all make mistakes. And we all wish we hadn't. And every single dot has to experience all forms of pain and suffering. Tragedy and hardship are part of the experience. For some reason some of us do life tougher than others. No explanation. No reason. Just is.
Christmas time is also about GIVING and GIVING BACK to others who need help to enjoy a moment of happiness in their lives. I'm sure you are aware that there are more 'poor' people in this world than 'lucky ones'. Those that beg for a food scrap and a sip of water. Those living in slums. Those that are not long for this world. So Christmas is a time to REFLECT on what we have and what we haven't. What we NEED as opposed to what we want. Giving isn't just about material gifts. Even moreso it is about sharing the love. Giving people hope. Helping those less fortunate.
Oh yeah, the opportunity to REFLECT. To look in the mirror of life and find OPPORTUNITY in the reflection. To see yourself as you are. To see yourself as you wished you could be. The opportunity to find your UPPER CASE ME. The ME that you can't see in the mirror. The ME that is inside you knocking to come out. The ME that you won't find unless you take a little time to REFLECT on where you are in your life. It doesn't matter if you are 20 or 80 years old. REFLECT. Go find your real ME. The one looking at you in the mirror is only a form. So use this wonderful reason to look at what you have done, what you have been through. Use the opportunity to CHANGE. Your real ME is knocking. Just answer the door.

I have mentioned soooo many times that I am blessed. I was handed the opportunity to look for meaning. I called out to 'Someone Out There' for help. Because I needed to revisit the last few years I have been going through all of my exercise books and stuff as I was growing in my new difficult environment. I also have some videos. One of them is the video re-enactment of my poem "Dear Mister Someone Out-There". Pretty hard to watch, revisiting those times of hardship. But again I needed to go back to those times to make sure I have the foundation for the story right. In fact it's great footage because it is embarrassingly real and I will use it and other footage to show just what we are capable of if we REFLECT on our lives to date. When I was under that rock I new I had very few options. But on reflection I had to CHANGE, no matter how long it took. Because I found my ME I have been able to move forward ever so slowly. I now BELIEVE what I am capable of doing and since then I have encountered so many SYNCHRONICITY moments (meaningful co-incidences) to show me that I am on the right track. The Journey has been long, the STEPS many, but the end is within reach because of my belief. I am letting my consciousness take me where it must. I have given myself over. Now I am WORKING BACKWARDS to move forward. Using the experiences of my past I am rebuilding my future.....
But none of this could have happened unless I was given the opportunity to look beyond the rock. I was given the opportunity to REFLECT and CORRECT.
So as you hopefully put the feet up and enjoy a deserved break from the insanity of life, take some time to REFLECT. Use this festive season TIME to look in that mirror and see what you can find.
I wish you all the happiest of Christmases (hmmm... is that a word?) and may Santa deliver the best life sized mirror to you to see what you can see.
PEACE AND LOVE...... and ART

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