"As far as I am concerned, the greatest suffering is to feel alone, unwanted, unloved"
- Mother Teresa
I had a friend called Matty. I met him at a Soup Kitchen one Friday night. He was with all of the street kids. They were all drunk but behaving. I kept as far away as I could because my life was bad enough. I didn't want to complicate it by hangin' with negativity in any form.
Then all of a sudden the 'Happy Birthday' song started. Apparently it was Matty's birthday. The Rosies volunteers got a little fairy cake and found a candle, lit it, and wished Matty a happy birthday. Matty was popular with everyone on the streets. The street kids were having a good time. I joined in the celebrations and sang along with them. I hadn't met Matty but a few minutes later this guy got up. He was terribly drunk and staggered. I laughed. I had been in his position before. Matty looked pretty young, mid-thirties or so. He was good looking and had a good bod.
Matty saw me singing and made a bee line for me. He stuck out his hand to me and said 'thanks mate', I'm Matty'. I'll never forget his smile that night. He went back to the street kids and had fun.
......... I was nearly at Church on Sunday morning. It was raining. The phone rang. It was another homeless person that new I was Matty's friend. He told me they had found Matty's body the night before, not in his new dig. Matty had overdosed. It was only two days after I spoke to him. It didn't make sense. But then again nothing does on the streets. I went to mass and I prayed for him. And I cried for him. Matty was ME. Matty was YOU, maybe not now but in another time. He was a great person with a problem. We all have problems.
Matty's good friend Scott lost his only real mate. He had trouble coping. He became very lonely without Matty to drink with. They found his body a few months later. It's........
......JUST NOT FAIR......
I keep crying. I am now. The streets makes me cry. And I'm going to tell everybody why I cry. Matty was ME. Matty was YOU. Remember his story. Make it mean something.
R.I.P Matty. I miss you......