"I was walking around in circles
No direction, no feeling, reclusive
A victim of my mind, all purpose gone
I was lost"
Happy Valentines Day dear...
I just got 10 books out at the Library. Most of them are philosophy related. The Mind, the brain, Loss and Grief, the usual sorta stuff I read. There are a couple I have read before but a long time ago. They were pretty good with some helpful information so I update my head every now and then.
But there's another reason. I need to give some people some help so I need to 'refresh' myself. Sometimes I get LOST IN LIFE. I think we all do. Things will be going along fine and then.... WHAMMO..... the brick hits you. If you aren't ready for it then a lotta damage can be done. I spend sooooo much time learning from books and experiencing from homelessness, that I sorta get LOST. I am always trying to CONNECT THE DOTS, relating experiences that can help others to my own plight. Sometimes that works against me. I forget that I am a REAL person. I forget that I am not outta the woods yet myself, living in the bush and sleeping in a tent. But after doing it for soooo long, like anything, I become complacent. I can't see the forest for the trees. I become mechanical. The APATHY NEGOB moves in. Then....OUCH, that hurt......the brick hits me!
But there's another reason. I need to give some people some help so I need to 'refresh' myself. Sometimes I get LOST IN LIFE. I think we all do. Things will be going along fine and then.... WHAMMO..... the brick hits you. If you aren't ready for it then a lotta damage can be done. I spend sooooo much time learning from books and experiencing from homelessness, that I sorta get LOST. I am always trying to CONNECT THE DOTS, relating experiences that can help others to my own plight. Sometimes that works against me. I forget that I am a REAL person. I forget that I am not outta the woods yet myself, living in the bush and sleeping in a tent. But after doing it for soooo long, like anything, I become complacent. I can't see the forest for the trees. I become mechanical. The APATHY NEGOB moves in. Then....OUCH, that hurt......the brick hits me!
....lovely Lovey Dovies....
I keep writing about life, and death as if it were a topic assigned to somebody else. I forget sometimes that I MYSELF was born and that I MYSELF am dying (tick,tick,tick....).
The brick this time is a family I know who have three cancers happening. That is, three family members have different cancers. They are all terminal. One short term, two later. There's a lot more to the story but it's pretty upsetting to see people close to you going through very hard times. It brings you back to stark naked reality. It's the brick that hits you.
But you know what else it does to me? It confirms that what I am doing is the right thing to do. My new network, DotsHQ, is designed to give all of us the opportunity to share our LOVE, in good and bad times. It will CONNECT us when we need to be connected. It will prevent the APATHY NEGOB from throwing the brick. It means that sometimes I will walk around in circles, no direction, no feeling, reclusive.........
But it's the curve ball that life throws at us. The complacency curve ball. The apathy curve ball. But those balls teach us life lessons. Those lessons are to WATCH OUT for them. Otherwise they're gunna hit us like that brick........
The brick this time is a family I know who have three cancers happening. That is, three family members have different cancers. They are all terminal. One short term, two later. There's a lot more to the story but it's pretty upsetting to see people close to you going through very hard times. It brings you back to stark naked reality. It's the brick that hits you.
But you know what else it does to me? It confirms that what I am doing is the right thing to do. My new network, DotsHQ, is designed to give all of us the opportunity to share our LOVE, in good and bad times. It will CONNECT us when we need to be connected. It will prevent the APATHY NEGOB from throwing the brick. It means that sometimes I will walk around in circles, no direction, no feeling, reclusive.........
But it's the curve ball that life throws at us. The complacency curve ball. The apathy curve ball. But those balls teach us life lessons. Those lessons are to WATCH OUT for them. Otherwise they're gunna hit us like that brick........
..... they're all LOST !....
I see a lot of people everyday at the Library, and in the street, and on the bus if I catch one or while I'm walking. We all see lots of other people every day. Sometimes I look at their faces just to see if they look happy, or sad, or hurried or mad. It's interesting also to try and figure out what EACH person is THINKING. You can usually figure out through their body language and facial expressions. I do it every day. It makes me smile when I notice that soooo many people don't seem to know where they are, or indeed where they are going. They certainly don't seem to know WHO they are. There are a whole lotta dots out there that seem to be...........
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