"I looked I saw, continued on, got plenty of time to go
The future's pretty rosie now sit back relax just grow
A smugness it enveloped me can't see that far in front
This life it seems eternal so just grit and bear and grunt
Then something happened it's really weird so very hard to tell
I turned around looked back I gasped so shocked I nearly fell
I frowned I blinked and rubbed my eyes the past had grown and grown
I turned right back and looked ahead where was that comfort zone
So now I am aware of time, it ticks my life away
At least I'm not too late to wonder, meditate and pray
The future it is there in front so close to where I live
So now I smile, a peaceful sigh my future is to give
Time will tick and move right on, the ending is in sight
The past is quickly catching up but still a future bright
Just take a grip look straight ahead, for love indeed you'll find
And when you do that's all you'll need to leave the past behind"
aka Brendan Lauritz © 2013
I remember when I was a teenager, about 16 I think. This girl that I fancied was going out with this guy who was 30 years old when she was only 17. I was disgusted. And jealous. Yuuuuuk. How could such a beautiful girl go out with somebody soooooo old and wrinkly. 30. Yep. You got it. T-H-I-R-T-Y. Seriously. He should have been charged. Now of course it would have been OK for her to go out with a nice pimply faced BIIIG 16 year old. I mean she might have been bordering on a 'Cougar' and I might have been her little 'Toy Boy' but at least I still had some life left in me. I mean this guy was nearly as old as my parents and they were listed with the Heritage Society! Or so my Thinking went at the time. Then guess what happened?????
Mmmm Hmmm. Oh Oh......
Oh maaaan, it really freaks me out this blinking. See, once I was born there wasn't 'sposed to be the other end. There was just birth..... and life. Booze, parties, sex, drugs and rock 'n roll to fill in the hours, and days, and weeks, and months, and years....Oh Oh....and decades and... and.... and......
Well this just 'ain't fair, this, this, getting old. I mean, I am accepting of the fact that we have to get older, like to maybe somewhere between seventeen and twenty sorta age ..... but then stay there for a few decades or preferably centuries. And I'm one of these positive people that knows we have to move forward. Just not too quickly and not too far. Or close to the end or edge or whatever you can see first. BUT.....
REMEMBER, or should I say T-H-I-N-K about this. If you are lucky enough to get the Queen's letter reminding you that your last breath is not far away, you have been BLESSED with having had 36,500 days of PAST. Not much you can do with it. Maybe put on the old Barbara Streisand song or dig up a few funny photos, keeping in mind not to get too excited with the risk involved at such a grand age......
But birthDAYS are a special time for reflection. Especially say, if you happened to turn 50 yesterday. Now we aren't talking birthWEEK, or birthMONTH, or even birthYEAR. We are talking birthDAY. And so if you were born fifty years ago yesterday, I will be the first to blow the trumpet and wish you Happy Eighteen Thousand, Two Hundred and Fiftieth BIRTH DAYS ...........
....... of PAST .....
I think it is a wonderful accomplishment indeed, certainly worth a Queen's Email if not the full blown personally delivered postman's drop off from HRH. BUT......
see, here I go again. I'm trying to be REALISTIC. What's more important, 18,250 days of PAST or ?????? days of FUTURE. Hmmm.... bit of a toughie, huh? If the PAST has been kind to you, I 'spose the Barbara Streisands will be something to think about. Like for a BLINK of your unknown ?????? Then what?
Well, if you are good looking, intelligent, religious, spiritual and broke, like me (lower case) for instance, then you can look directly into the 'face of fifty' and scream into your FUTURE "Aaaa Haaa Haaa Haaar, my best is still to come you beautiful piece of unknown light. Get ready, 'cause IZE BIN THINKIN'......
or you can turn around, BLINK, shed a tear and say 'Woooops I ffffffd up'.
Hmmm.... I know which road I'll be on.