"See I'm on this trip that never stops, just goes and goes and goes
Keep looking for the finishing line, must be further up I 'spose
I meditate to keep me calm, take one STEP at a time
So hard to keep on focusing on this lonely trip of mine
It's been so long now, so far back, I've forgotten when it started
And how I made it this far it's quite amazing I 'ain't departed
Was it all a dream, some delusion, maybe a phantom put to rest
The demons keep reminding me, "give up" they say "it cannot manifest"
The vultures keep on circling way above my tortured soul
The doubt creeps in I wonder if it's time to dig that hole
But deep inside my ME keeps smiling knowing I won't break
Because I've learned the lessons failure gifted with heartache
And so my quest continues forward until I cross that line
Accompanied by the evil demons who crave this soul of mine
They sit there on my shoulder screaming fear into my ear
My Angel knocks them off their perch only sweet lullabies I hear
See the Angels are my vision of faith, the reality wrapped up in dreams
They talk to me along the way, their impenetrable armour protecting me it seems
For now I understand that as I near that finishing line abound with all it's glory
It is simply one of many Journeys in life's never ending story"
- TriggerDot
aka Brendan Lauritz

Once your inner me, or your Upper Case ME as I prefer to call it, makes you conscious of every STEP you take, every move you make, every THOUGHT you think, every emotion you feel, then your real world begins to take shape. Your REAL LIFE begins, not the one most of us end up living.
There are some ads being shown during the Australian Open Tennis featuring Andre Agassi where he talks about 'stuff' that has 'shaped' his growth in tennis and life. You only have to listen to the way he talks to see that he is very Spiritual. He appreciates his GIFTS in life and of course life itself. He talks about the Journey in getting to No. 1 in his field. He talks about attitude and having the right mindset. And he talks about the three most influential people in his life, his Dad growing up, his life coach and best friend, and his wife Steffi Graf, who also happens to be one of the greatest women tennis players of all time. And yet when he talks about Steffi tennis is not mentioned, even though it was what made them famous. Andre talks about Steffi teaching him about life in a way he believes is better than any Philosopher could teach because she LIVES what she believes in. She practices what made her so successful in every thing she does every minute, every day. They talk about what happiness means to them. Not the unbelievable number of tennis Grand Slam trophies they share, but the happiness they bring to each other through their life values, morals and faith. See they are in love with each other and in love with the life gifted to each of them. Their spirituality, their love (the same!) defines their existence. They never stop searching for meaning. Hmmm, pretty interesting huh?
There are some ads being shown during the Australian Open Tennis featuring Andre Agassi where he talks about 'stuff' that has 'shaped' his growth in tennis and life. You only have to listen to the way he talks to see that he is very Spiritual. He appreciates his GIFTS in life and of course life itself. He talks about the Journey in getting to No. 1 in his field. He talks about attitude and having the right mindset. And he talks about the three most influential people in his life, his Dad growing up, his life coach and best friend, and his wife Steffi Graf, who also happens to be one of the greatest women tennis players of all time. And yet when he talks about Steffi tennis is not mentioned, even though it was what made them famous. Andre talks about Steffi teaching him about life in a way he believes is better than any Philosopher could teach because she LIVES what she believes in. She practices what made her so successful in every thing she does every minute, every day. They talk about what happiness means to them. Not the unbelievable number of tennis Grand Slam trophies they share, but the happiness they bring to each other through their life values, morals and faith. See they are in love with each other and in love with the life gifted to each of them. Their spirituality, their love (the same!) defines their existence. They never stop searching for meaning. Hmmm, pretty interesting huh?

Now this isn't about me being anything like Andre. Probably our one common trait is our gender! But one thing I now share with Steffi and Andre is that I continue to learn, I continue to evolve. I accept that the Journey I am on is not just about coming back from disaster but it is a PART of my whole life Journey. There are, and will continue to be, many obstacles in my Journey from Miser-ee to Destin-ee to Happy-Me. The brick walls. I have set the bar so high because of my belief in myself so it has made my Journey longer ..... and harder. But that's Ok because I have ACCEPTED the challenge. Professionally I no longer work in the Corporate world. I have completely redefined myself. Who I am. Where I want to be. Such dramatic change brings a lot of brick walls with it. But if you can accept the CHANGE, and have the self-belief and the right reasons for the change then it MUST happen. Not hope. MUST happen. I have spoken so often to you about MINDset, consciousness. I have talked also about love, and light and eternity. Life stuff. REAL life stuff. Well, I've also learned another thing that Andre and Steffi know. You won't get one without the other. And when you cross that finishing line, which isn't far away for me, another Journey will begin within the one life Journey. It isn't about money, or tennis trophies........

My life lessons continue. I grow. The demons are still there yelling the fear in my ear, bless there little black souls! Trying to inflict a bit of self doubt. I mean going from Management and Marketing, Banking and Financial Planning to writing, books, websites, BLOG thingies, poetry, song writing, and musical production with no previous experience is a bit "out there" I guess. Well maybe a bit more than a bit. Hmmm..... Maybe a violin and piano short of a full orchestra. Possibly even totally NUTS! But that's what makes it soooooo, aarrgghhmm ..... challenging. I know I have the faith, the belief in myself. The belief in God. And I have learned a lot about life like a happy little philosopher. But the funny thing is that every STEP I take I'm getting closer to that line through the life lessons. And it's what makes the Journey so interesting if y'all hang around. Because when I get to the finishing line and you can see what I have done there is one great moral to this story. If I can do it everybody can do it. In the meantime can someone help me get over this brick wall. I'm sure it's as high as Heaven ..........