"I write fiction mostly to try to make sense of my own petty and profound misery, and I fail every time, but every time I come away with a peculiar sort of contentment, as if it was just the trying that mattered. And maybe that's the best answer to the patently ridiculous problem of trying to reconcile all the very visible evil and suffering in the world with the existence of a God who is not actually out to get us; we suffer and we don't give up"
- Chris Adrian, medical doctor and author
Who me? NUTS?????
Heee Heee Heee, that's a funny quote. Sounds soooo much like moi!
I think I have written a BLOG thingie with a "NUTS" title. If not, the reason I'm writing one now is primarily because I'm sitting at the computer munching on a nut muesli bar. Good enough reason I guess. Now I've just gotta expand it a little into a subject. Let's seeee noooow....... Hmmmmm.....
I think I have told you I have created a song called "NUTS". It was the second song I created after 'Broken Man' which I reproduced in the book. I like it. It's sorta about me but in a lighthearted way. I intend to use it later probably at the beginning of my film or documentary but I have to get "Nursery Rhymes" going first. That will give me the exposure to begin the other projects. The song "NUTS' basically tells the tale of Trigger who is having lotsa problems (that's the first line, in fact) and is living in the bush and sleeping in a tent after being evicted by the landlord. He goes to see his doctor (an ex) who does some tests and finds out he's 'nuts'. It has a good ending though because he ends up repairing himself and writes books and poems and sings in a band. Pretty much spot on lyrics about the real me, except.......
I'm not nuts. Not yet. I don't think. Although. Hmmmm..... Maybe I am sorta kinda when I think about it. I ramble on like it sometimes don't I dot? I wonder if I really am? I haven't really talked to anyone about my mental condition because most of them have mental conditions themselves and I try to stay away from negativity.
I think I have written a BLOG thingie with a "NUTS" title. If not, the reason I'm writing one now is primarily because I'm sitting at the computer munching on a nut muesli bar. Good enough reason I guess. Now I've just gotta expand it a little into a subject. Let's seeee noooow....... Hmmmmm.....
I think I have told you I have created a song called "NUTS". It was the second song I created after 'Broken Man' which I reproduced in the book. I like it. It's sorta about me but in a lighthearted way. I intend to use it later probably at the beginning of my film or documentary but I have to get "Nursery Rhymes" going first. That will give me the exposure to begin the other projects. The song "NUTS' basically tells the tale of Trigger who is having lotsa problems (that's the first line, in fact) and is living in the bush and sleeping in a tent after being evicted by the landlord. He goes to see his doctor (an ex) who does some tests and finds out he's 'nuts'. It has a good ending though because he ends up repairing himself and writes books and poems and sings in a band. Pretty much spot on lyrics about the real me, except.......
I'm not nuts. Not yet. I don't think. Although. Hmmmm..... Maybe I am sorta kinda when I think about it. I ramble on like it sometimes don't I dot? I wonder if I really am? I haven't really talked to anyone about my mental condition because most of them have mental conditions themselves and I try to stay away from negativity.
Still lookin' OK don'tcha think?
But come to think about it I have had a lotta stress and pressure over the last few years. And I don't really talk to many people about my projects like the songs and DotsHQ because they are such big dreams that people will probably think I'm "NUTS" if I tell them about them. Hmmmm.....
I wonder if I should get checked by a shrink, you know one of those counselor type thingies? I mean still living in a tent after more than three years. That's not 'eggs actly' normal is it dot? But I don't go to the soup kitchens (much) any more. That has to be a plus for normality don't you think? Keeping to myself away from all of the other nutt...... Oooops. Oh oh. Maybe I should see someone. Are shrinks someones or somethings? I don't think long periods of sustained solidarity are very good for stimulation of the neutrons and sensors in the Dopamine pathway in the cranium. I wonder.......
Nuh. Uh uh. I'm sure I'm not nuts. I know what to look for with depression, schizophrenia, and all other types of looney tunes activity. I'm sure I would have picked up by now if I was as mad as a snake, even though I live near them. I wonder. Bit scary now that I've given it a little thought. Nuuuh. No way. My sanity is within the required limits to not call myself insane. Is "NUTS" the same as insane? Oh. Mama mia. Now I am starting to worry a bit. I forget stuff every now and then. And I'm going a bit deaf which is something to do with the auditory part of the cranium which is in the same area as the insanity sensor....
Oh oh......
I wonder if I should get checked by a shrink, you know one of those counselor type thingies? I mean still living in a tent after more than three years. That's not 'eggs actly' normal is it dot? But I don't go to the soup kitchens (much) any more. That has to be a plus for normality don't you think? Keeping to myself away from all of the other nutt...... Oooops. Oh oh. Maybe I should see someone. Are shrinks someones or somethings? I don't think long periods of sustained solidarity are very good for stimulation of the neutrons and sensors in the Dopamine pathway in the cranium. I wonder.......
Nuh. Uh uh. I'm sure I'm not nuts. I know what to look for with depression, schizophrenia, and all other types of looney tunes activity. I'm sure I would have picked up by now if I was as mad as a snake, even though I live near them. I wonder. Bit scary now that I've given it a little thought. Nuuuh. No way. My sanity is within the required limits to not call myself insane. Is "NUTS" the same as insane? Oh. Mama mia. Now I am starting to worry a bit. I forget stuff every now and then. And I'm going a bit deaf which is something to do with the auditory part of the cranium which is in the same area as the insanity sensor....
Oh oh......
......lookin' good, huh?.......
"NUTS" ?????
Naar. Couldn't be. I haven't watched any television for over three years. I've read lotsa books, listened to motivational and inspirational tapes at the Library. I've written a book and poems and this BLOG thingie. I mean people that are nuts or insane couldn't do that could they dot? Huh? Dot?.......
I check the internet every day to keep up with the latest news. Every day there are stories of bombings and murder and this and that. Without doubt there are a lot of people living on the edge but I'm sure that I'm not one of them......
Am I? Dot? Huh? D'ya think I might have turned into one craaaazzeee sonof?
No. No way. I'm doing well considering the environment I live and work in. Nup. Uh uh. I couldn't be "NUTS"......
D'Ya THINK Dot ????
Who?
Ted Bundy....... the serial killer?
Huh? Like me?
Reeeeally...... "NUTS"?
Like Me??????
Naar. Couldn't be. I haven't watched any television for over three years. I've read lotsa books, listened to motivational and inspirational tapes at the Library. I've written a book and poems and this BLOG thingie. I mean people that are nuts or insane couldn't do that could they dot? Huh? Dot?.......
I check the internet every day to keep up with the latest news. Every day there are stories of bombings and murder and this and that. Without doubt there are a lot of people living on the edge but I'm sure that I'm not one of them......
Am I? Dot? Huh? D'ya think I might have turned into one craaaazzeee sonof?
No. No way. I'm doing well considering the environment I live and work in. Nup. Uh uh. I couldn't be "NUTS"......
D'Ya THINK Dot ????
Who?
Ted Bundy....... the serial killer?
Huh? Like me?
Reeeeally...... "NUTS"?
Like Me??????
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