"My image of God may not be the personal God that so many pray to. But yes I do believe in the everyday preciousness of life. That is what i call God. But faith. Do I have faith?... I have faith that it's not what you believe but how you live your life that matters. I have faith in my ability to love and be loved..... Most important, I have faith that helping other people is the true key to fulfillment. Certainly to mine."
- Sally Quinn, journalist
It was sooooo beautiful I have to share it with you. I wake up lots during the night in La Chateau Tento but that's to be expected when you live in a tent on uneven ground, with mold, bugs, creepy crawlies and the beat goes on. Last night was no different. After nearly 4 years living in the bush you get used to the light which is your clock. I can usually pick within 15 minutes or so what the time is. Last night I woke at 12.30 then 3.00. The first thing I always hear is the roar of the waves which must be veeeery loud given I'm half deaf (left ear only has 20%!). I couldn't go back to sleep for a while so I just lay there and listened. After a while I dozed off again and woke at 5.15 or so. The day was breaking but I could tell this was going to be one very fine day indeed. The orange sun was forcing its way over the horizon. Time for me to rise to the sunshine. I went for some boiling water and made a cuppa back in La Chateau. But today was beyond beautiful. I went to the beach for a look. The tide was out a little already. It was a good day to lose myself in meditation for a while. Sometimes I just meditate in La Chateau, sometimes on the beach if weather permits. But his morning was special and so I had no hesitation in going to my favorite meditation spot sitting on the edge of a sand dune overlooking the beach. On a fine day the view simply takes my breath away..........
'So take my hand and guide me on the trip I want to share
Please come with me on my Journey, Mister SomeOne Out-There'
But this morning I reeeeally got lost in TIME. The focus of my meditation is always the sound of the waves, not my breathing which is the normal focus. I have become good in LOSING MYSELF which is the purpose of course. However when I became conscious and aware I found tears had been running down my cheeks which I cannot comprehend because my focus was not directed on any other thoughts. The other strange thing was that I had been meditative for well over an hour just in the peace and calmness state. I had truly gone INSIDE myself. When I stretched my arms out and repeated my mantra (above) I felt tears fall on my chest. Believe me I freaked out........
I sang every one of those songs without missing a beat even though the only one I have been MINDful of recently is "Nursery Rhymes". And why the older songs I have written and not the newer ones which you would think would be in my MIND????When I had finished doing my Freddie Mercury impersonation I went for a long walk along the beach. And guess what I did? I collected shells without even thinking about it. If you remember when I hit my rock bottom and was seeking help from 'SomeOne Out-There' my unknowing THERAPY at the time was guess what?
Mmm Hmm.... you got it... COLLECTING SHELLS!
So. What's it all mean?
Weeeell, FULL CIRCLE ring a bell????
MSOT ring a bell????
I sit here with the biggest grin on my face KNOWING that MSOT is guiding me and giving me these special little days for me to ponder my future and how to combat the confusion I have had of late. Today was a great day. Now all I have to do is.........
.....CARPE DIEM !
....... Mmmmmm Hmmmmm.........