SINK

"I do have a core of trust that I'll figure out things and find my way. And if whatever I try is not a good experience, even that is a good experience. If something turns out badly its interesting"
                                                                            -   Julie Taymor, theater director
"We are more than we imagine ourselves to be. It's what we tell our children, our parents, our friends. But how often do we tell it to ourselves? And if we do, how often do we prove it? How often do we challenge ourselves to do something new?"
                                                                            -   Veronica Chambers, author/journalist

....wear a floaty guys....

On two separate occasions in my life I have been in trouble in the surf to the point I thought I was gone. One was when I was in my early twenties. I was caught in a 'rip' which took me right out into the ocean. There were no life guards around as it was a cool day with only a couple surfing. Another time was a few years ago when I was 'dumped' by a big wave when I wasn't watching. It was only that I was such a strong swimmer that I survived, and only just. You always remember those times when you almost die but scrape through. On both occasions I was losing energy fighting to survive. I was sinking. Taking in water. Beginning to lose it. That IT was LIFE itself. I try not to think about those incidents because they were pretty terrifying. But good always comes out of bad. They were both BIIIIG lessons. I learned to be more careful. I learned to be more safety conscious. Since then I have been in the surf countless times and thankfully have not had any similar 'sinkings'. Lessons in life from BAD. I vividly recall the terror when I was sinking. Panic sets in and makes it worse. But I had been trained to remain calm. However they can't train you to be calm as you are heading to the ocean floor drowning with water going into your lungs. So I kept using whatever strength I had to surface and make a wave break. I was very lucky to be able to tell you this story. But GOOD will always come with BAD.

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So let's fast forward those EXPERIENCES to about 5 years ago or so. My business ventures were failures. I was in big trouble financially. I had no income. The stress of going down was causing other problems emotionally, as tragedy and hardship manage to do. I began to SINK again. I was losing it big time. I was struggling to SURVIVE. Bad thoughts were penetrating my psyche. I withdrew from life. I became  reclusive. I was alone. SINKING........
But I was able to stay reasonably calm. I knew that GOOD EXPERIENCES come from BAD EXPERIENCES, every single time. But I also knew that I had to hang in there. I had to do what I had to do to stop sinking......
I'm still here. I survived the bad experiences. And now I have learned from those experiences. I was SINKING in all of them. Now I have many, many bad  experiences that have become good experiences. I can now SHARE those experiences. People love stories of survival. I've got plenty......

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..... see, eye survived !......

As my Journey continues my story builds. I have been asked by many people to help their family or friends out. I am not qualified to give advice to those who are suffering, weeeell not on paper anyway. But what is even better is that I can tell my story, just like I do with you guys every day with BLOG thingie. I am blessed to be able to share my experiences. If I can help just ONE suffering person by telling my story, then everything has been worth the trip. But as it turns out I am already helping several people, dots who are SINKING. That is the greatest satisfaction I can get. And the funny thing is that I'm not far off the bottom myself, still living in a tent. But I'm not SINKING, not one little bit. In fact that sinking feeling is turning into euphoria almost, the exhilaration of being able to help others through my STORY. Now THAT is sooooo coooool. So.......
IMAGINE what it's going to be like when I get my DOTSHQ network going. We will all be able to share our SINKING stories together.
OMG. That will be sooooo cooooool...............

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