"Be soft in your practice
Think of the method as a fine silvery stream
not a raging waterfall
Follow the stream
have faith in its course
It will go its own way, meandering here, trickling there
It will find the grooves, the cracks, the crevices. just follow it.
Never let it out of your site
It will take you"
- Zen Buddhism, Reflections for Every Day
You know what's sooo great about BLOG thingie? It's like me talkin' to myself but you can tune in to what my head is saying. Pretty cooool, huh. It's what Dots HQ will do.
Hope y'all had a great Chrissie Day with a full tum and the required mid afternoon snooze.
I had the BEST Chrissie Day I've had, well I think. Isn't it funny how life throws a few curve balls at you. I mean the last couple of years Chrissie Days have been pretty bad. No hold on, aaarrgghhmm........bad. Nuh, still 'ain't got it', aaarrgghhmm......very BAAAD. That's better. See when you live in a tent, broke, reclusive with nothing and nobody, then you can't expect much, right? And so that's wot I got, not much! But I didn't mind because I was worthless.....
But that wasn't the miracle. Me going was the miracle!!!! See I've sorta got into this BAAAD habit of hiding from the world, which seems to be a natural ingredient of the hardship recipe for its 'Disaster' dish. But no.....
My SPECIAL angel invited me to her place with a whole lotta SPECIAL people she called her FAMILY and FRIENDS. She had this very SPECIAL house that was like one of those "HOME" thingies where it was warm and friendly and peaceful with lots of love around. In fact all day where I sat SPECIAL people kept coming up and making me feel like I was something which I had forgotten I was. They all made me feel SPECIAL.
We were all sitting outside under a beautiful patio and all day I could see all of these SPECIAL people walking around enjoying the day and being happy. So cooool.......
It kept eyeballing me and I kept eyeballing it back. Every time I looked away and chatted I turned back and there it was. I smiled.
It was a sign....
I mean it was a sign but it was a sign. Oh, you know, it was a aaarrgghhmm, wot you say..... a MESSAGE in the form of a sign. It just kept looking at me. I laughed and shook my head at it at one stage. It deserved more than a smile. It was a meaningful co-incidence. Carl Jung called it Synchronicity. I knew it all the time it was eyeballing me.
See, to explain, as I have mentioned I was once a very confident, sorta 'out-there' sorta salesman type of Busyness person before I lost everything. I ran away and hid. I didn't like myself. Not one little bit. But I've worked on myself since then and I'm getting better. My angel is helping me get there. I was lacking confidence that I had skyfulls of. I have felt worthless. It's part of the reclusive deal. Just hide.....from everything and everyone......
As I said it was a small miracle in itself that I even went to this heavenly FAMILY home. But when I was there everything was SPECIAL. The friends, the home, the family, the feast........ everything. It was soooo special that for a while even I felt SPECIAL. I think I forgot what a lot of the world is about it's been sooooo long.
Sorry? Wot dot?
Oh, the sign........