BY THE SEA...... now cut that out......
"When I look at the sea,
there well Sometimes into my mind
Deep thoughts too dear to tell
In words too hard to find
I stand on the shore and stare,
But the deeps that are the sea
Speak not of deeps out there,
But of the deeps in me.
Then the sea may break on my ear
And tumble and toss in my eyes
But the deeps I see and hear
Did not on this shore rise."
- James Dillet Freeman, Poet Laureate, 1912-2003
I didn't know of him when I became homeless and was sleeping on the beach but I knew what he was about when I later read his work. Because I had a lot to think about I used to sit for hours looking out to sea, listening to the thunderous roar of the surf. And I would wonder at the creation. I would wonder at it's power. And I would wonder about life. Then often tears would roll down my cheeks but I wasn't crying. That happened a few times. I obviously just thought I was sad and I had every right to be sad, depressed even. But it wasn't until many months later that I understood my true feelings from way back then. Again the exercise books have jolted my memory.
In fact it was when I read a poem by James Dillet Freeman that the tears became meaningful. I was fortunate to meet a lady that gave me a copy of his most famous poem "I Am There". I was taken by the power of his work and so I researched him. I came across 'By The Sea', along with many other works.
I become one with it. It becomes one with me.
So when I was lead to his poem 'By The Sea' I understood. To write something as beautiful as that, he not only had to have experienced the feelings inside his words but he had to reach into his SOUL to paint that picture. And when you are able to interpret the feeling, the raw emotion of his soul, it makes you shiver with the realization that the two of you have CONNECTED, that somebody else has been on the same ride. Tears flow without crying. It really is an 'AHA' moment in life that makes you give thanks for your gift.
To speak of 'the deeps' of the ocean and explain the vision in terms of his own 'deeps' means that he has become one with his creation. He had a sense of greatness in what he was admiring but he knew that his own 'deeps' were of a much higher source than the limited vision of his eyes. He is explaining that he could 'SEE' his own 'deeps' just as I knew I could see mine at the time, without knowing it. But to be able to express his raw emotion with such a precious beauty is a gift only a man of his ability could do. With most of his works he had his way with words.
And I know why I am doing that. Not because I am suffering delusions of grandeur that I understand great works of art. Uh uh. Nup. The reason is because I am beginning to finally get inside MY OWN MIND. For me to be able to understand the works of others I need to get inside my own MIND in order that I can become one with another. As Mister Freeman has said 'the deeps that are the sea, speak not of deeps out there, but of the.......
DEEPS IN ME.........