"I'm rather tall and prone to fall but something stops me sinking
My feet attached to the ground I move without much THINKING
And if I jump I go right up and come down really quick
I scratch my head and wonder what it is that makes me stick
I jumped up and down on this man made thing they call a trampoline
It made me bounce much further up, could almost touch my dream
But then I found the bigger fall wiped the smile right off my face
I hit the ground with such a thud .... almost left the human race
My mind it pointed out to me the rule of relativity
That Einstein dude was pretty smart with all his creativity
It got me asking 'why was it so', goes up it must come down?
Could be right for material stuff but emotionally I drown
When I walk I take these steps that keep me pretty level
Not so my mind which deviates with ups and downs I travel
But the experience in life I gain the longer I walk alone
My dream is now my Destin-ee, the place I call my home"
aka Brendan Lauritz
Sorry I haven't chatted for a while but I've been on Homeless Annual Leave! Hmmmm.... not really. I've been working on my Rock Opera trying to get to the point where I can convince an amateur theatre to run with it. With a little help from my friends we are well into the musical score. Once I have that ready and it works the way my vision has painted it, I will use my previous exposure to get the free publicity I need for the story. But it sure 'ain't no walk in the park. Like the poem above depicts there are bazillions of 'ups and downs' as I step forward. The road is long and fraught with frustration and every other emotion that can de-spirit in the quest for success. It feels the 'downs' outnumber the 'ups' a trillion to one. Such is the Journey of life.
But in a weird kinda way it is the very 'downs' themselves that help build the 'ups'. As you are aware my chosen path of creativity has been challenging the last few years to say the least, but I have hardened up. I have become remarkably resilient. I follow my path. I have learned sooooo many life lessons that now give me the BELIEF that I need to get where I am going. As fate would have it, I would not be in the position to chase my dream if I had have stayed in the Corporate world pre tent days. Why?
Because I was doing what I didn't want to do. I was surviving, not enjoying, like most of us do. It took the bottom of the rock to make me look for my true destiny. I learned the value of the one and only short life I have.........
This BIIIG project of mine has taken forever. It seems like I was born again in that tent. For some reason I began to make the right CHOICES. Rather than join most of my fellow soup kitchen 'friends' in their daily alcohol and drug filled world, I separated myself from their 'lost souls paradise". I chose to live away from their misery. I chose to keep fit on the beach. I chose to meditate. I chose to walk 7 klms. to the Library every day for nearly five years. I CHOSE LIFE.......
Writing is so competitive that I knew that in order to succeed I had to be better than most of the other writers. With no money I had to find a way. I had to be different. I had to CREATE A STORY that the media and the public would find interesting, no matter how long it would take. I went on National television primetime. I ate humble pie, big doses of it. All of the clients I had seen over many years, my family, my friends, my kids. Biiiig embarrassment. But I KNEW that this would be the FOUNDATION for my STORY. And now, as I get closer to the dream, that foundation STORY will become instrumental in creating the free publicity I need to publicize the Rock Opera and the other projects I have been working on. All of these projects involve writing (and some illustrating), something I had never dreamed of doing before I crawled out from under my rock....
"the events in your life can help shape your destiny, but it is the CHOICES you make that will DEFINE who you are". I'm sure one of the famous philosophers from days gone by made that statement (or similar). I would not have appreciated what that statement really means without the life lessons I have learned in my 'downs' through homelessness, hardship, fear, anger, and all of the other negative emotions (NEGOBS) I had to face because of mistakes I made. I made wrong choices that put me in the position of homelessness. I made the right choices to be where I am now. Funny thing is that I KNOW what I have been working on for the last few years will put me in the position I WANT TO BE IN. And that place is a much better place than I was in before rock bottomsville. A dream can be a little picture or video in your mind that makes you feel good or it can be a CHOICE of something you WANT to happen in your life, something you BELIEVE you can achieve. It could be a simple dream like to fall in love, or lose a heap of weight. If you try hard to do it, then you will ...... if you BELIEVE. The same applies to BIG dreams like mine. They take a loooong, loooong time to manifest but such dreams are worth fighting for. Such dreams are life changing. And such dreams are your Destin-ee if you are patient ..... and resilient.
I have waited years to get where I am now. I have CREATED a whoooole lotta stuff for the STORY. I have DIVERSIFIED, a rule I learned from my Financial Planning days gone by. To have all of my eggs in one basket would have been too risky, and soul shattering if I had failed. So I have CREATED various types of projects in the writing genre. First books, then website/BLOG thingie, poems, then the Rock Opera, a pilot script for a Sitcom I am working on for TV, and others....
But dreams come from our imagination which is deeply embedded in our MIND. The imagination CREATES the THOUGHT for the DREAM. Like a road map it gives us direction to follow, one STEP at a time. And TIME does not matter in the grand scheme of things. Making it to your Destin-ee is the realisation of the chase. And as I stipulated in my book, it is one of the key ingredients in my VIPER POISON recipe that will make your dream come to. I'll tell y'all about it in my next BLOG thingie. It's the stuff that is going to make my DREAMS COME TRUE. Mmmm Hmmm.........