"Well it started with a slap, enough to see if I would cry
I can't remember that far back but I assume I must've tried
My peepers would have opened but so small I could not see
The beginning of a Journey, what was this place that I would BE
This big thing kept on grabbing me it made this weird noise
It took me quite a while to understand this game of baby joys
But every time I screamed and yelled something covered up my mouth
And wondrously this stuff came out, it made me burp and belch
For quite some time I watched as big thing ran me round the world
She made me laugh and cry as like a flag her anger was unfurled
Because this thing's so big I had no choice, I had to follow and pretend
Like a prisoner, I had to survive when thrown in the deep end
But as I grew I listened more, it helped me get my way
I learned to walk and run away and laugh and cry and play
And then I went to school where more big things they caused me grief
The learning curve was very steep, to survive beyond belief
So much to learn it never stops so hard to stay ahead
But this was life however long, so many things to dread
'Twas only a blink in time until I became a big thing too
I wish someone had told me what it's like before I grew
Before I had a big thing to teach and guide me on my way
But now I'm stuck with stress and pressure every single day
So next time when you're feeling down, life has it's way with you
Take one deep breath, imagine life before, well before we grew"
aka Brendan Lauritz
If you sit back and take a deep breath and think about what this life is all about you HAVE to ask some serious questions. Why? How? You know the ones.
My job is to help make you T-H-I-N-K.
If you get caught up in this frenzy of a life and just keep on existing, eventually you will be a very "big thing" with an "old" attached to the front. Oh Oh......
And when you get to the "old big thing" stage, weeeell there 'ain't a lot left to think about anymore. Because you'll be deaded. And when that happens it might be someone or something very bright and majestic asking all of the questions about the little gift of life you were given. So you probably wanna start thinking of some answers ... like NOOOW!
When we suffer grief through loss it is natural to soul search. Look for meaning. Look for reason. Ask the questions that we cannot comprehend. It is LEARNING LIFE TIME. Just like in my little ditty above when we are widdle this 'big thing' we later get to know as Mum, looks after us, bosses us around and teaches us about life. When we are widdle we don't like some of the stuff we must LEARN. But there's one thing weee widdle ones do. Weee ask a whoooole lotta questions. Because there are always new things to comprehend. By asking we LEARN. Until weee widdle ones become 'big things'. That's when we think we know everything. So we stop asking. 'Cause we are now 'big things'.
The 'NORMAL'. The 'ROUTINE'. Apathy begins. Girls, Boys, Marriage, Homes, Mortgages, Kids, Jobs, Careers, and of course the big one..... Money. And so it goes on. Trying to survive. Being a big thing.....
And then AAAARRGGHH..... The bad end of the stick heads your way. NOOOOOOoooooo....... and..... of course..... WHYYYYYYYYY?
Oh, so now you want some answers. Got some questions, huh? Hmmmmm.....
I have asked soooo many questions in the last few years since the bad end of the stick gave me a good one... two. But the good thing is that I know that THOSE questions do not have answers. Well not yet anyway. The questions are not ours to answer for some unknown reason. So when you ask the WHYYYYY question I'll save you a whole lotta stress and pressure. You are not going to figure it out.
So try this for some sort of resolution. Not an answer. A solution to the pain.
"IT IS WHAT IT IS"
Acceptance will help. Not fix but help. So we must try. And the way to do that is to ask for help. Just like I did. I called out to Mister Someone Out-There because it was a good name. But because I thought about it I came up with another description of the "Upper Case ME", or the INNER ME. That is my Spiritual ME. it's not hocus pocus as some would say. It is not someone who can answer THE questions but someone who will discuss the questions and help with the meaning, the reasons and the purpose.
And it will give you some peace and prepare you for the answers to the questions...... when it is TIME.
Things like LIFE. It just isn't a specified period in TIME. LIFE is eternal. It has to be when you THINK about it. So THINK NOW. Ask the questions NOW.
LOOK FORWARD TO THE NEXT BIT
whatever that may be
Just ask your Upper Case ME......
.....and when you do there's a chance you will SEE......