MY REFLECTION
"It's been quite some time since I've written to chat
I know I've been pretty slack, no doubt about that
But I can honestly say you've been in my thoughts
That dreaded 'Writer's Block' NEGOB, a whole lotta noughts
This lack of communication's been a downright shame
But joy of all joys I'm back in the game
So privileged to see that you're all still checking in
I guess you're all wondering where the hell have I bin
Well it's like this you see, I've gone back to the start
Retrace the STEPS on my JOURNEY, ignite the spark in my heart
For the battle, the hardship, my GIFT of life lessons to learn
must not be forgotten, a fuel for the fire of life, to make it burn
To write is a STORY, putting THOUGHTS on paper to see
But if there are no thoughts in your MIND then it simply cannot BE
This next stage of the JOURNEY so CREATIVE, a CRITICAL POINT will unfold
Must check all of the foundations on which the structure for the STORY will be told
The pain and the suffering of life's lessons will diminish over TIME
So much easier to move forward without THINKING to that finishing line
But my STORY is no fantasy, no nursery rhyme, nor imagination run rife
It requires reflection on my JOURNEY, to be pensive, for this indeed is my LIFE
This time of the year is the mirror of your soul
The time for reflection, to understand your life's role
If you look into that mirror and don't like what you see
Then be blessed for the opportunity to find your real ME"
- TriggerDot
aka Brendan Lauritz

Well a HO HO HO and a HUM HUM HUM
I hope you finish Christmas with a very full tum!
Here we are again. A blink. Another Christmas. Such a wonderful time of the year, huh?
Maybe a few days off the normal Busyness of life. Maybe even a few weeks. Time to put the feet up and relax. Time with the family to get to know each other again. Time to enjoy the kids. Time to catch up with friends. Time to rejoice the true meaning and praise The Lord with Christmas Carols.
And a time to look in the mirror of life and REFLECT.
TIME......
In a week's time we approach a new year. We make and break New Year resolutions with great intent but little resolve. For some reason we treat a new year as an opportunity to get rid of some bad stuff and bring in some good stuff, right?
Hmmmm..........
This time last year I was still living in the tent. Alone. The year before that and the year before that and..... well you know the STORY by now. My Christmas for a few years were no different to any other days. Simply I was taking a STEP at a time. But one of the greatest gifts I had been given was a whoooole lotta TIME. A whole lot of time to REFLECT. I didn't have to wait for Christmas. My new life Journey was well under way.......
I hope you finish Christmas with a very full tum!
Here we are again. A blink. Another Christmas. Such a wonderful time of the year, huh?
Maybe a few days off the normal Busyness of life. Maybe even a few weeks. Time to put the feet up and relax. Time with the family to get to know each other again. Time to enjoy the kids. Time to catch up with friends. Time to rejoice the true meaning and praise The Lord with Christmas Carols.
And a time to look in the mirror of life and REFLECT.
TIME......
In a week's time we approach a new year. We make and break New Year resolutions with great intent but little resolve. For some reason we treat a new year as an opportunity to get rid of some bad stuff and bring in some good stuff, right?
Hmmmm..........
This time last year I was still living in the tent. Alone. The year before that and the year before that and..... well you know the STORY by now. My Christmas for a few years were no different to any other days. Simply I was taking a STEP at a time. But one of the greatest gifts I had been given was a whoooole lotta TIME. A whole lot of time to REFLECT. I didn't have to wait for Christmas. My new life Journey was well under way.......

Every single dot on this planet has regrets. We all make mistakes. And we all wish we hadn't. And every single dot has to experience all forms of pain and suffering. Tragedy and hardship are part of the experience. For some reason some of us do life tougher than others. No explanation. No reason. Just is.
Christmas time is also about GIVING and GIVING BACK to others who need help to enjoy a moment of happiness in their lives. I'm sure you are aware that there are more 'poor' people in this world than 'lucky ones'. Those that beg for a food scrap and a sip of water. Those living in slums. Those that are not long for this world. So Christmas is a time to REFLECT on what we have and what we haven't. What we NEED as opposed to what we want. Giving isn't just about material gifts. Even moreso it is about sharing the love. Giving people hope. Helping those less fortunate.
Oh yeah, the opportunity to REFLECT. To look in the mirror of life and find OPPORTUNITY in the reflection. To see yourself as you are. To see yourself as you wished you could be. The opportunity to find your UPPER CASE ME. The ME that you can't see in the mirror. The ME that is inside you knocking to come out. The ME that you won't find unless you take a little time to REFLECT on where you are in your life. It doesn't matter if you are 20 or 80 years old. REFLECT. Go find your real ME. The one looking at you in the mirror is only a form. So use this wonderful reason to look at what you have done, what you have been through. Use the opportunity to CHANGE. Your real ME is knocking. Just answer the door.
Christmas time is also about GIVING and GIVING BACK to others who need help to enjoy a moment of happiness in their lives. I'm sure you are aware that there are more 'poor' people in this world than 'lucky ones'. Those that beg for a food scrap and a sip of water. Those living in slums. Those that are not long for this world. So Christmas is a time to REFLECT on what we have and what we haven't. What we NEED as opposed to what we want. Giving isn't just about material gifts. Even moreso it is about sharing the love. Giving people hope. Helping those less fortunate.
Oh yeah, the opportunity to REFLECT. To look in the mirror of life and find OPPORTUNITY in the reflection. To see yourself as you are. To see yourself as you wished you could be. The opportunity to find your UPPER CASE ME. The ME that you can't see in the mirror. The ME that is inside you knocking to come out. The ME that you won't find unless you take a little time to REFLECT on where you are in your life. It doesn't matter if you are 20 or 80 years old. REFLECT. Go find your real ME. The one looking at you in the mirror is only a form. So use this wonderful reason to look at what you have done, what you have been through. Use the opportunity to CHANGE. Your real ME is knocking. Just answer the door.

I have mentioned soooo many times that I am blessed. I was handed the opportunity to look for meaning. I called out to 'Someone Out There' for help. Because I needed to revisit the last few years I have been going through all of my exercise books and stuff as I was growing in my new difficult environment. I also have some videos. One of them is the video re-enactment of my poem "Dear Mister Someone Out-There". Pretty hard to watch, revisiting those times of hardship. But again I needed to go back to those times to make sure I have the foundation for the story right. In fact it's great footage because it is embarrassingly real and I will use it and other footage to show just what we are capable of if we REFLECT on our lives to date. When I was under that rock I new I had very few options. But on reflection I had to CHANGE, no matter how long it took. Because I found my ME I have been able to move forward ever so slowly. I now BELIEVE what I am capable of doing and since then I have encountered so many SYNCHRONICITY moments (meaningful co-incidences) to show me that I am on the right track. The Journey has been long, the STEPS many, but the end is within reach because of my belief. I am letting my consciousness take me where it must. I have given myself over. Now I am WORKING BACKWARDS to move forward. Using the experiences of my past I am rebuilding my future.....
But none of this could have happened unless I was given the opportunity to look beyond the rock. I was given the opportunity to REFLECT and CORRECT.
So as you hopefully put the feet up and enjoy a deserved break from the insanity of life, take some time to REFLECT. Use this festive season TIME to look in that mirror and see what you can find.
I wish you all the happiest of Christmases (hmmm... is that a word?) and may Santa deliver the best life sized mirror to you to see what you can see.
PEACE AND LOVE...... and ART
But none of this could have happened unless I was given the opportunity to look beyond the rock. I was given the opportunity to REFLECT and CORRECT.
So as you hopefully put the feet up and enjoy a deserved break from the insanity of life, take some time to REFLECT. Use this festive season TIME to look in that mirror and see what you can find.
I wish you all the happiest of Christmases (hmmm... is that a word?) and may Santa deliver the best life sized mirror to you to see what you can see.
PEACE AND LOVE...... and ART