To BE ME
"I wish and I hope and I pray and I dream
I work and I laugh and I cry and I scream
This life is so hectic toward Happy-Me I strive
Maan oh maan it's so difficult to simply survive
From way down under my rock I peek
So long since the thrill of a good night's sleep
To free myself rom this pathetic existence I must turn up the heat
The dark, the noise, the people, no life.... aaarrgghh.... I retreat
This rock gets heavy, I need someone out there to help me
Relieve the burden, lift this rock I'm under, set me free
Another peek this time some light, a smile I see
Dear Mister SomeOne Out-There, finally you give me belief in my ME
So now let this Journey begin, no fear, no loss, euphoric energy I BE
A reason, a purpose, no time limit for the future, eternally ME
Simply step, and then another, toward my destiny
Where the only thought that matters is the one BELIEF in ME."
- TriggerDot
aka Brendan Lauritz

When I decided to write (as opposed to becoming a writer) the only reason I had was to share my story with others, like YOU for instance, so that we may help each other. If you haven't gathered by now my intention is to create a massive global support Network, DotsHQ. I have already designed some of the applications. The whole point is to be able to express my raw emotion, my feelings of sorrow, grief, anger, loneliness, guilt, happiness, joy, love and gratitude and all the other raw feelings resulting from ME. Of course you know by now that when I talk of ME in uppercase, I am talking about my inner me, my inner self, my Mister SomeOne Out-There who answered my distress call for help.
The CHANGE in my THINKING has now led me to write a book, a website, BLOG thingie, poems and various media self-promotions where I have tried to create a foundation for my STORY as it unfolds. And I say that because the STORY is unfolding as I create my FUTURE PAST.
To explain, many of you are aware that by Working Backwards I am making an uncertain FUTURE an exciting DESTINY. Then I use the EXPERIENCES to continue the Journey and finally complete the story as I told you a couple of days ago, i.e. the book "STORY, THE END". OhK....
The CHANGE in my THINKING has now led me to write a book, a website, BLOG thingie, poems and various media self-promotions where I have tried to create a foundation for my STORY as it unfolds. And I say that because the STORY is unfolding as I create my FUTURE PAST.
To explain, many of you are aware that by Working Backwards I am making an uncertain FUTURE an exciting DESTINY. Then I use the EXPERIENCES to continue the Journey and finally complete the story as I told you a couple of days ago, i.e. the book "STORY, THE END". OhK....

I watched a program a few nights ago about people struggling on unemployment benefits. They were doing it tough. I felt for them. I shared their pain. Some of them had been homeless for short periods so they know the hurt and the accompanying emotional trauma.
So far I've done over 1100 days living in the bush and sleeping in a tent. Before that I did another couple of hundred days sleeping in old bombs of cars and on the streets in rubbish bins, under office stairwells and on the beach (quite romantic reeeeally!). Not Xactly what I would call a badge of honour! I often give talks and still get surprised at the reaction of the audience when I tell the snake stories, the tornado and cyclone stories, the floods, the soup kitchens, the overdoses, the suicides, the drugs, booze, the mentally challenged and onanonanon.......
You know why I get surprised? Because I have been doing it for soooo looong now that it has become my "NORMAL". When other homeless ask how I am, it's like they are asking how my weekend was in "NORMAL" society. You know why I can handle all of this stuff?
Because I found my ME, my inner self.
It just so happens that my ME likes a good STORY. I am CREATING the STORY as I LIVE IT. My NORMAL is pretty abnormal to most other dots. I want to share my EXPERIENCES so others don't have to......
So far I've done over 1100 days living in the bush and sleeping in a tent. Before that I did another couple of hundred days sleeping in old bombs of cars and on the streets in rubbish bins, under office stairwells and on the beach (quite romantic reeeeally!). Not Xactly what I would call a badge of honour! I often give talks and still get surprised at the reaction of the audience when I tell the snake stories, the tornado and cyclone stories, the floods, the soup kitchens, the overdoses, the suicides, the drugs, booze, the mentally challenged and onanonanon.......
You know why I get surprised? Because I have been doing it for soooo looong now that it has become my "NORMAL". When other homeless ask how I am, it's like they are asking how my weekend was in "NORMAL" society. You know why I can handle all of this stuff?
Because I found my ME, my inner self.
It just so happens that my ME likes a good STORY. I am CREATING the STORY as I LIVE IT. My NORMAL is pretty abnormal to most other dots. I want to share my EXPERIENCES so others don't have to......

I keep going on about TIME.
I keep going on about my ME.
WHY?
Because they are what provides the EXPERIENCES for me to write, to communicate with you. I can write STORIES about stuff that you do not, and should not EXPERIENCE.
But I also want to make you AWARE that every single one of the 7 billion plus dots on this place we call Earth, has inside them the great leveler, the one thing that makes every one of us the same. We all have a ME, an inner self. That ME makes TIME insignificant. That ME that we all have is a part of universal consciousness, a part of our ONE MIND, and a part of our ONE SOUL.........
The TIME that we so ungraciously limit to a LIFE is in fact eternal. That TIME is who we are. So we can continue on our 'survival' plan and DIE when we become dead-ed and ....... weeeell that's THE END really... Or we can look for and find our ME, which is our destiny, and become ALIVE for eternity, even after we become dead-ed.
The point of all this D & M is that the real ME inside each and every one of us is the unknown gift of eternal life. It is not the survival me of limited life.
The ME in every single one of us is TIME itself......
NO LIMITS, just BE, use your ME to SEE.....
....for ETERNITY....
Mmmm Hmmm......
Stay cooooool dots!
I keep going on about my ME.
WHY?
Because they are what provides the EXPERIENCES for me to write, to communicate with you. I can write STORIES about stuff that you do not, and should not EXPERIENCE.
But I also want to make you AWARE that every single one of the 7 billion plus dots on this place we call Earth, has inside them the great leveler, the one thing that makes every one of us the same. We all have a ME, an inner self. That ME makes TIME insignificant. That ME that we all have is a part of universal consciousness, a part of our ONE MIND, and a part of our ONE SOUL.........
The TIME that we so ungraciously limit to a LIFE is in fact eternal. That TIME is who we are. So we can continue on our 'survival' plan and DIE when we become dead-ed and ....... weeeell that's THE END really... Or we can look for and find our ME, which is our destiny, and become ALIVE for eternity, even after we become dead-ed.
The point of all this D & M is that the real ME inside each and every one of us is the unknown gift of eternal life. It is not the survival me of limited life.
The ME in every single one of us is TIME itself......
NO LIMITS, just BE, use your ME to SEE.....
....for ETERNITY....
Mmmm Hmmm......
Stay cooooool dots!